mentally exhausted

[violetforever]

it takes a lot of mental strength for me to even type something out these days. i want to say a lot but i cant put much into words without the energy to do so. sometimes i start typing a reply or thread and then i just give up because i cant push myself to go on with it. its making me feel so much worse. i feel like i cant even communicate properly on here anymore. it feels like my own brain is giving up on me.

 

[Pluto]

 

[doomedbynarrative]

Me too... I think the amount of energy it takes for our brains to like do things to survive the day is immense and once the battery is low it's hard to think really.

 

[violetforever]

Me too... I think the amount of energy it takes for our brains to like do things to survive the day is immense and once the battery is low it's hard to think really.

that sounds right. i dont do anything but lay in bed and cry from overthinking so i guess thats where all my energy goes.

 

[eggsausagerice]

it takes a lot of mental strength for me to even type something out these days. i want to say a lot but i cant put much into words without the energy to do so. sometimes i start typing a reply or thread and then i just give up because i cant push myself to go on with it. its making me feel so much worse.

not to sound therapisty but i think that means you should spend less time on the site if you're experiencing a lot of mental fatigue. this is what lead to me posting and reading less. i became more active after ordering sn but i'm trying to distance myself from the site again. i think the site can just end up making someone feel more helpless than they already are instead of being a safe space. sometimes i feel guilty that i post because i'm contributing to that environment of general despair.

 

[violetforever]

not to sound therapisty but i think that means you should spend less time on the site if you're experiencing a lot of mental fatigue. this is what lead to me posting and reading less. i became more active after ordering sn but i'm trying to distance myself from the site again. i think the site can just end up making someone feel more helpless than they already are instead of being a safe space. sometimes i feel guilty that i post because i'm contributing to that environment of general despair.

thx for this reply i read it before i fell asleep but i was too tired to respond. thats probably true but also i can tell the mental exhaustion comes from maladaptive daydreaming and obsessive thoughts and feelings for a certain person. idk if this forum makes me feel worse or better, its just there. i dont really have anyone else outside of my family, who i cant stand, so i just need somewhere.

 

[Always-in-trouble]

Same for me. Barely contributing much of note here other than waiting to commit at the right time and some isolated threads. Then again, I'm not doing much outside either even when I don't use this site since I don't socialise outside of my carer/family circle.

not to sound therapisty but i think that means you should spend less time on the site if you're experiencing a lot of mental fatigue. this is what lead to me posting and reading less. i became more active after ordering sn but i'm trying to distance myself from the site again. i think the site can just end up making someone feel more helpless than they already are instead of being a safe space. sometimes i feel guilty that i post because i'm contributing to that environment of general despair.

It feels impossible not to though, especially since suicide in general would make you feel down with any alternative advice being viewed as insincere

 

[violetforever]

Then again, I'm not doing much outside either even when I don't use this site since I don't socialise outside of my carer/family circle.

same. its just school and family for me. i hate my family and i dont see a stable future for myself so what am i even alive for?

It feels impossible not to though, especially since suicide in general would make you feel down with any alternative advice being viewed as insincere

we might as well be on here until the day we die since the only people who understand us and what we are going through are here. im not looking to get better so if this forum is debilitating me then so be it.