My last push before i go

[lotus.dead]

I'm trying to push myself to finish a few more artworks to raise funds to pay for college and stuff so my parents aren't burdened that much. but sometimes i just get so depressed and heartbroken until my head hurts and i feel like fainting. I'm trying my hardest to push myself, it's a battle no one could see. and all the while im drawing, visuals of me stabbing and hanging myself keeps replaying in my mind, im an intrusive mess. im really tired and i feel like giving up already. i dont want to think anymore, it hurts, everything hurts, i feel so cold. i cant see anymore.

 

[lotus.dead]

im
trying
my
hardest
to
hold
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