Losing faith

[Reallysad]

always tried to keep faith that everything will always work out even through the bad times but losing the faith now.I have never felt like this.I believe in a higher power (not a church goer etc) but now feel nothing.I must have pissed someone off up there.
Been suicidal on/off but feel weird now just totally flat and lost hope.I can't describe it.
Anyone else feel like this.what does it mean?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Kind of. I was brought up to believe in heaven- as a comfort really, because so many of my close family members died early on in my life. It wasn't a strictly religious upbringing but it was spiritual.

I guess in my late teens, I really started to question orthodox religion. Now, I really don't know what I believe entirely but I fall more on the side of there being nothing. In all honesty though- that's more of a comfort. If there is a God, I just can't believe that they are a loving God. Too much points towards them being a sadist... I'd actually prefer there to be nothing rather than that.

I guess I just feel like it's all pretty meaningless. I used to find purpose at least in my creative work. It's still something I would prefer to do- rather than other work. Still- even that doesn't feel quite the same. I'm really just here waiting now for my Dad to go- so that I can too. It's a really weird feeling- doing the absolute bare minimum with very little enthusiasm- just to get by until it's my time.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

For me personally, feeling "flat" and having lost all hope is just part of my depression. There have been levels to it and the "lost all hope" stage is just a deeper level.

 

[Rational man]

You seem to subscribe to some kind of devine intervention and in your case, some form of punishment. I believe in a cosmic god and we as humans are part of nature. We are made of the same elements that made the cosmos. In reality, you, me and everyone else are not punished by god because there is no omnipresent god. Sorry but life is tough and we live and then cease to exist in our current form.

 

[Versailles]

always tried to keep faith that everything will always work out even through the bad times but losing the faith now.I have never felt like this.I believe in a higher power (not a church goer etc) but now feel nothing.I must have pissed someone off up there.
Been suicidal on/off but feel weird now just totally flat and lost hope.I can't describe it.
Anyone else feel like this.what does it mean?

I understand your feelings, in this moment, i am a horrible depression, i`m losing my faith in everithing, and is awful