Does anyone here still able to connect to people? Emotionally? I feel lost, emotionally flatlined, numb, afloat, after facing so much ignorance, neglect, silent treatment, ghosting from people close to me.
I think there are layers of loneliness I feel, some due to connection, everyone feels differently so i can't even describe it well in words. I always used to love connecting to similar souls, with whom I could relate but more importantly I saw some reflection of me. Furthermore the deeper I felt has been a lot esoteric with just few people in life, as if you're made from same stardust, you can sense such a soul, I'd always feel lonely here.
I'd always feel lonely in the way I love people because I know many won't connect or understand, I see someone's soul, their personality, their inner world, something I recognise Ànd relate to. To me people are not replaceable & when I lose them, it's like part of dies with them, overtime loosing close people by death, parting, ghosting etc I have become numb Ànd like desensitised probably, or maybe it's my depression
I feel a sense of sorrow for the world, there relationships are so fickle, not in depth, it's like if you love someone for their soul Ànd you know the person is on a different plane of consciousness than you. They don't see you the way you see them, can't connect the way you do. It's such a tragedy to love someone that way. To some relationships are transactional Ànd about meeting needs not about enjoying Ànd their existence Ànd how they unfold as a person, no curiosity. Good friends are so rare in the world. People love you for their own needs, what you give to them, Ànd not for who you're as a person, your mind, thought, personality, with harmonious people you can nurture your inner child and inner world, you become happy and creative but with non harmonious ones you even disconnect to your own self. There is tragedy in this world about ride and die friends, relationships. That soul bonding. Such a rare experience to find kind, connecting soul group. When I feel close to someone or start knowing someone I can sense from the get go who are my people with whom I stay till the end, common values, inner world, connection, depth defines it for me. I can glance through conversations. It's more like I intend to because i can't see someone I love in pain. But in this world, people don't think far beyond few years, short term is norm, people are running and chasing, instead of being in present, living, pausing in the moment, letting time slip by as if they are immortal Ànd keeping grudgingly, treating badly others by silent treatment and neglect as if they are people they treat this way are going to be immortal for them to return Ànd never feel guilt & accountability, even here they chase distraction, while such people are claim they are in pain and don't find life interesting, I saw that with some Christians, it's as if eternity to make up for, while they have apocalyptic vision as if they waste away this life. They are really so non self aware of impermanence of life, they don't value the present or live in moments, they are living in anxiety of future. Seeing all of that is so so sad. Living in present, taking one day at a time, in depth, means you pause, hold the moment as you don't know if you could have it tomorrow, you don't know you would have the care and love tomorrow so you appreciate it even more, it becomes so much precious and overwhelming, thar melts your heart with kindness of those around you. Time itself is valuable with others you value. How could you have time ignore Ànd neglect if you claim to going each day one day at a time, you live in the moment, immersed in it.
It worries me that people are so certain about so many things when life itself is so uncertain Ànd more often they are wrong
Another way i experience loneliness is how to describe it to others, Ànd probably many won't understand. I have gotten less expressive with time, sharing with people close to me as I lost those I connected with (mutually) to death. Sharing after a long time, most often I can't articulate. Atleast here i don't feel ignored, neglected. World doesn't care.
I don't think people realise how rare Ànd precious are some good friends life. How lucky we are if we have them Ànd how painful it is to live with a void once they pass away.
I think there are layers of loneliness I feel, some due to connection, everyone feels differently so i can't even describe it well in words. I always used to love connecting to similar souls, with whom I could relate but more importantly I saw some reflection of me. Furthermore the deeper I felt has been a lot esoteric with just few people in life, as if you're made from same stardust, you can sense such a soul, I'd always feel lonely here.
I'd always feel lonely in the way I love people because I know many won't connect or understand, I see someone's soul, their personality, their inner world, something I recognise Ànd relate to. To me people are not replaceable & when I lose them, it's like part of dies with them, overtime loosing close people by death, parting, ghosting etc I have become numb Ànd like desensitised probably, or maybe it's my depression
I feel a sense of sorrow for the world, there relationships are so fickle, not in depth, it's like if you love someone for their soul Ànd you know the person is on a different plane of consciousness than you. They don't see you the way you see them, can't connect the way you do. It's such a tragedy to love someone that way. To some relationships are transactional Ànd about meeting needs not about enjoying Ànd their existence Ànd how they unfold as a person, no curiosity. Good friends are so rare in the world. People love you for their own needs, what you give to them, Ànd not for who you're as a person, your mind, thought, personality, with harmonious people you can nurture your inner child and inner world, you become happy and creative but with non harmonious ones you even disconnect to your own self. There is tragedy in this world about ride and die friends, relationships. That soul bonding. Such a rare experience to find kind, connecting soul group. When I feel close to someone or start knowing someone I can sense from the get go who are my people with whom I stay till the end, common values, inner world, connection, depth defines it for me. I can glance through conversations. It's more like I intend to because i can't see someone I love in pain. But in this world, people don't think far beyond few years, short term is norm, people are running and chasing, instead of being in present, living, pausing in the moment, letting time slip by as if they are immortal Ànd keeping grudgingly, treating badly others by silent treatment and neglect as if they are people they treat this way are going to be immortal for them to return Ànd never feel guilt & accountability, even here they chase distraction, while such people are claim they are in pain and don't find life interesting, I saw that with some Christians, it's as if eternity to make up for, while they have apocalyptic vision as if they waste away this life. They are really so non self aware of impermanence of life, they don't value the present or live in moments, they are living in anxiety of future. Seeing all of that is so so sad. Living in present, taking one day at a time, in depth, means you pause, hold the moment as you don't know if you could have it tomorrow, you don't know you would have the care and love tomorrow so you appreciate it even more, it becomes so much precious and overwhelming, thar melts your heart with kindness of those around you. Time itself is valuable with others you value. How could you have time ignore Ànd neglect if you claim to going each day one day at a time, you live in the moment, immersed in it.
It worries me that people are so certain about so many things when life itself is so uncertain Ànd more often they are wrong
Another way i experience loneliness is how to describe it to others, Ànd probably many won't understand. I have gotten less expressive with time, sharing with people close to me as I lost those I connected with (mutually) to death. Sharing after a long time, most often I can't articulate. Atleast here i don't feel ignored, neglected. World doesn't care.
I don't think people realise how rare Ànd precious are some good friends life. How lucky we are if we have them Ànd how painful it is to live with a void once they pass away.
