SoupSnakes

SoupSnakes

Experienced
Nov 11, 2019
217
First of all, I just want to put forward thanks to anyone and everyone who made this website possible. I am so thankful it exists and that I found it. Thank you all for being so welcoming and making my last few weeks of life more 'normal' than they have been in a long time.

Thank you to the admin, mods and staff for keeping the site going and getting nothing in return, except for gratitude. I honestly cannot thank you enough for creating this non-judgmental, incredible place.

I'd also like to extend thanks to a few people who have made my short time on the site really lovely. Unfortunately, some of the people I'd like to have mentioned have already taken their journey, maybe I'll catch them on the flip side if there is such a thing. But to the ones that are still here;

@SinisterKid - thank you for being the first person to reach out to me and making me feel straight at home! You were so welcoming and friendly, I really appreciate it.

@Morphosis - thank you for your random message out of the blue which gave me endless conversations and occupied my mind. It was lovely to have a friend like you on the other end of my messages. I truly hope that things look up for you because you absolutely deserve it.

Massive shout out to @Stan for the simplified SN thread and the endless amounts of sarcastic replies and gifs that have made me laugh when you're clearly trying not to lose your rag, you've always made me smile without even having to speak to me!

There are probably loads of people I could crack on about but I won't bore you. Just thank you to anyone who has been kind enough to have a conversation with me, you've been a big part of making me feel welcome and making this journey much easier.

Now, I've already done the first 24 hours of the regime yesterday so today is my final day. Today has been as follows;

06:00 - 10mg meto
14:00 - 10mg meto

Then it will be;
15:00 - begin fasting
21:00 - stop drinking
22:00 - 1g para, 100mg Amitriptyline
22:15 - 30mg meto
22:30 - 800mg tagamet
23:00 - 25g SN in 50ml water

(Amitriptyline is what I use for sleep as I've been disallowed benzos, I've checked and none of the drugs interact with each other but if anyone knows of a reason I shouldn't take Ami with all of these, please let me know so I can amend!)

I'll be sticking around until I've drank the SN but then I will be logging out and clearing my history. I'm not really tech savvy so I don't know if that will be enough but I wanted to try and stay as long as possible to document it. (So please don't disable my account until then!)

I'm not a religious person and don't believe in any of that but I've found myself praying today that this works, that I don't vom and that this will be my final try... we'll see.
 
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ValideSultana

Student
Dec 2, 2019
119
First of all, I just want to put forward thanks to anyone and everyone who made this website possible. I am so thankful it exists and that I found it. Thank you all for being so welcoming and making my last few weeks of life more 'normal' than they have been in a long time.

Thank you to the admin, mods and staff for keeping the site going and getting nothing in return, except for gratitude. I honestly cannot thank you enough for creating this non-judgmental, incredible place.

I'd also like to extend thanks to a few people who have made my short time on the site really lovely. Unfortunately, some of the people I'd like to have mentioned have already taken their journey, maybe I'll catch them on the flip side if there is such a thing. But to the ones that are still here;

@SinisterKid - thank you for being the first person to reach out to me and making me feel straight at home because you're about 10 minutes away from me! You were so welcoming and friendly, I really appreciate it.

@Morphosis - thank you for your random message out of the blue which gave me endless conversations and occupied my mind. It was lovely to have a friend like you on the other end of my messages. I truly hope that things look up for you because you absolutely deserve it.

Massive shout out to @Stan for the simplified SN thread and the endless amounts of sarcastic replies and gifs that have made me laugh when you're clearly trying not to lose your rag, you've always made me smile without even having to speak to me!

There are probably loads of people I could crack on about but I won't bore you. Just thank you to anyone who has been kind enough to have a conversation with me, you've been a big part of making me feel welcome and making this journey much easier.

Now, I've already done the first 24 hours of the regime yesterday so today is my final day. Today has been as follows;

06:00 - 10mg meto
14:00 - 10mg meto

Then it will be;
15:00 - begin fasting
21:00 - stop drinking
22:00 - 1g para, 100mg Amitriptyline
22:15 - 30mg meto
22:30 - 800mg tagamet
23:00 - 25g SN in 50ml water

(Amitriptyline is what I use for sleep as I've been disallowed benzos, I've checked and none of the drugs interact with each other but if anyone knows of a reason I shouldn't take Ami with all of these, please let me know so I can amend!)

I'll be sticking around until I've drank the SN but then I will be logging out and clearing my history. I'm not really tech savvy so I don't know if that will be enough but I wanted to try and stay as long as possible to document it. (So please don't disable my account until then!)

I'm not a religious person and don't believe in any of that but I've found myself praying today that this works, that I don't vom and that this will be my final try... we'll see.

I don't know you, but I hope you have a safe, peaceful travel, my friend. Loads of love to you.
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,442
I have seen you around and never got a chance to get to know you.
I hope everything goes well and I and others will be on here all through tonight with you :heart:
 
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Shivani

Bereaved
Oct 29, 2019
132
Wishing you strength and luck.. Hope you find your peace
 
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Astral316

Astral316

Specialist
Aug 26, 2019
332
May you be successful in your endeavor.
 
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LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
I never got a chance to get to know you. I wish you peace no matter what happens. We are all here for you. ❤

So sorry to see you go!
 
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Ineedtobedead

Member
Nov 11, 2019
45
wishing you peace
 
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Stan

Stan

Factoid Hunter
Aug 29, 2019
2,589
Glad that my only two skills helped you. Hope the journey is easy for you and that the peace is welcoming. You will be missed.

last gif dedicated to you:

Tenor 6
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
I hope you find the peace you're searching for
 
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BPD_LE

BPD_LE

The Queen of Meme
Aug 11, 2019
1,576
Sad to see you go @SoupSnakes when we were just getting acquainted. Thinking of you ❤
 
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DoNotLet2

DoNotLet2

Wizard
Oct 14, 2019
684
Hopefully it will be some peace for you on the other side...
 
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VicariouslyLiving

VicariouslyLiving

Member
Dec 3, 2019
6
Best wishes to you. Enjoy your last day as if it was your first and travel safely.
 
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Numbtopain97

Numbtopain97

deader than dead
Aug 10, 2019
443
hope you find peace .
 
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Morphosis

Morphosis

Experienced
Sep 22, 2019
260
Aw @SoupSnakes you are an absolute diamond of a human being and our chats meant a lot to me... I want to be selfish and beg you to stay as there aren't enough superstars like you in the world.
I know you've had this date planned for a while and was thinking about you yesterday and hoping maybe you could delay it.
Anyway I'll stop being selfish....
Sending you all my love and hugs and really hope you find the peace you deserve. Hope the Big Red Fella can put his paws around you and give you a last cuddle before you go.
If you change your mind, you and him can always run away and come live with me and the cat instead :kiss:
Words can't describe how sad I am to see you go but I truly get it. Thanks for taking the time to listen and reply to me, which let me see there are people like you in the world who can touch someone's heart and also have a laugh despite your own problems.
Will see you on the other side :heart::kiss::hug::heart::kiss::hug::aw:
 
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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

Visionary
Sep 9, 2019
2,151
Goodluck Soup.
 
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raybd

Member
Dec 4, 2019
88
Bon voyage.
Sickens me that N is out of reach. If Big Tobacco or the Gun makers find a away to make money of N, I'm sure you will find it at your corner 7-11 within a week.
 
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imstillhungry

imstillhungry

Student
Nov 19, 2019
109
I'm sad to see you go. Wishing you a safe and peaceful journey. I hope you find what you're looking for. Sending you love
 
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Mloureiro

Student
Oct 7, 2019
128
Peace and safe travel. ♥️
 
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BrokenHopes

BrokenHopes

What doesn't kill you, f*cks you up.
Nov 27, 2019
162
Have never got to know you but have seen you on the forum and very much apreciated your presence. Wish you peace. ❤️
 
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xxsweetopheliaxx

Member
Nov 25, 2019
26
May you find peace at last ♥️
 
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Hydrokhoos

Hydrokhoos

Member
Dec 1, 2019
68
I'm a recent member, but immediately noticed your username... i'm sad I didn't get a chance to know you, but I hope you find peace.
 
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hopelessandbroken

Member
May 25, 2019
64
good luck and i hope you find peace. we are here for you :heart:
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
All the best for an anxiety free departure ❤️❤️❤️
 
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RainAndSadness

Administrator
Jun 12, 2018
2,144
Good luck. I wish you peace.
 
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NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
450
1575565365500 Rest well and as always, hope you find peace.
 
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Lostsoul333

Member
Dec 5, 2019
22
May you finally find peace... ♥️
 
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okaoki

last
Aug 4, 2018
251
wishing you a peaceful exit
 
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realjunes

Warlock
Oct 1, 2019
730
Aw @SoupSnakes you are an absolute diamond of a human being and our chats meant a lot to me... I want to be selfish and beg you to stay as there aren't enough superstars like you in the world.
I know you've had this date planned for a while and was thinking about you yesterday and hoping maybe you could delay it.
Anyway I'll stop being selfish....
Sending you all my love and hugs and really hope you find the peace you deserve. Hope the Big Red Fella can put his paws around you and give you a last cuddle before you go.
If you change your mind, you and him can always run away and come live with me and the cat instead :kiss:
Words can't describe how sad I am to see you go but I truly get it. Thanks for taking the time to listen and reply to me, which let me see there are people like you in the world who can touch someone's heart and also have a laugh despite your own problems.
Will see you on the other side :heart::kiss::hug::heart::kiss::hug::aw:
SoupSnakes - we haven't met really, but I always catch your posts and your emoji contents, and I can tell you are a person of superb character and accomplishment, and as Morphosis wrote, we need all the superstars on earth we can keep. So I am sad you will leave us, but I support anything and everything you choose, and I am never sad when a member is suddenly and finally suffering no more. One can see on this thread and comments how well regarded you are, and how you will be missed yet totally supported.
Do not answer this, if you feel it reveals too much, but I do not know what time it is where you are. Can you tell me your time table, or how many hours of your final 24 are left, because I very much wish to be here on SS for you. Thank you Super SuperSnakes and I will later bid you farewell.
 
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realjunes

Warlock
Oct 1, 2019
730
SoupSnakes - I just realized you are on UK time, its about 5:40 pm there, so I got the time thing now. Thanks.
 
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