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emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
219
i've been afraid of dying in a way that doesn't let me experience death properly. i want to be conscious to experience the peacefulness that people describe after near-death expereinces. i don't want to die while asleep or unconscious, because i would be missing out on that. i don't know if i'm making sense, but would hanging allow for that? preferably something that doesn't require a huge bypass of SI or is super painful, but i'd assume something like that doesn't exist anyways...
 
Kanau_Nano

Kanau_Nano

Member
Apr 12, 2026
8
I never thought of this before. I'm not sure there is a 100% way to be conscious the second before death.

Wouldn't you pass out a few minutes before actually dying from hanging? And bleeding out you would also lose consciousness. And overdoses can lead to severe seizures and you don't feel conscious having seizures. And jumping would possibly be instant death or survival most likely.

I can't think of anything. When I nearly died twice I was only slightly aware of what was happening.
 
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PanaxMan

Experienced
Apr 11, 2023
245
i've been afraid of dying in a way that doesn't let me experience death properly. i want to be conscious to experience the peacefulness that people describe after near-death expereinces. i don't want to die while asleep or unconscious, because i would be missing out on that. i don't know if i'm making sense, but would hanging allow for that? preferably something that doesn't require a huge bypass of SI or is super painful, but i'd assume something like that doesn't exist anyways...
Technically drugs like fent and heroin if you want a high before death. I've been in a nde and it is peaceful but that was when I was 12 and was thrown out of a flipped over car with the tire burning on the side of the highway and survived and landed to the grass before losing consciousness.
 
emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
219
Technically drugs like fent and heroin if you want a high before death. I've been in a nde and it is peaceful but that was when I was 12 and was thrown out of a flipped over car with the tire burning on the side of the highway and survived and landed to the grass before losing consciousness.
drugs are expensive, also i have no idea where i would even get them
 
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pascagalias

Member
Jan 3, 2026
16
I'm not a medical expert or anything. So please correct me if I'm wrong.
But I've only heard about these things when people get reanimated after accidents or difficult surgery. So I think the name "near death experience" could be misleading. Maybe it's more like a brain mechanism to get over extreme situations?

Anyway, I understand the thought of wanting to experience death. It's the last thing ever to experience, so why not try to get "the complete version" of it. The only way I can think of, though, is natural death.
 
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