Story Longing (saudade)

[hug]

It's approximately 11:58 pm, and I miss you very, very much, I feel like I could rip my heart out for you, brother. I don't want to lose you, since that year, I feel colder, I feel like a ghost. I made a drawing I hope you like it, I'm a real failure for losing you, but it was necessary....I'm sorry, Suicidal thoughts come and go, but I won't leave this world without you, I would never do that, ever because you are my light at the end of the tunnel. *shed a tear or three writing this letter*

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I hope that you find your brother soon. Best wishes

 

[ForgottenAgain]

What happened with your brother...if I can ask?

 

[hug]

I hope that you find your brother soon. Best wishes

Thank you! :)

What happened with your brother...if I can ask?

I disappeared from home after a physical fight between my father and my brother, I don't remember much but I know there was an airsoft gun involved. After I left home, I lived with my brother for a few months in a rented house... After that I left again, I can't blame him for anything, because it was my fault for disappearing, you know, in those times I was unstable and I was afraid of him being on my side. But I at least left him a lot of money to keep him for a few months and he was also working.
this was from September 2020 until around March 2021