lol i’m getting worse

[yousaidimsweet]

so i'm back here again after successfully coming off the site for three months and feeling a slight improvement in my symptoms. the last two months i've been in therapy, which helps to some degree. but everyday it's so hard to avoid ideation. today was a hard day, and i immediately slipped back into my old ways of catastrophizing and thinking negative thoughts. it's also hard because it feels like i'm not resolving anything internally. when i turned away from self harm, i turned to an eating disorder. hoping that one day i feel fine again

 

[TheLastGreySky]

so i'm back here again after successfully coming off the site for three months and feeling a slight improvement in my symptoms. the last two months i've been in therapy, which helps to some degree. but everyday it's so hard to avoid ideation. today was a hard day, and i immediately slipped back into my old ways of catastrophizing and thinking negative thoughts. it's also hard because it feels like i'm not resolving anything internally. when i turned away from self harm, i turned to an eating disorder. hoping that one day i feel fine again

Im sorry you're going through that. I was off the site since last July until today. Is it okay to stumble or take a step backwards, don't beat yourself up too hard. The longer you suspend being yourself up means the longer you'll have before you're proud of yourself again. Failure happens everyday, but only the successes are remembered by everyone but us our own biggest critics.

I don't have experience dealing with eating disorders however, I am sure you look fine.
And I hope one day you feel beautiful.

 

[zombiegirl]

recoverys not linear. youll go through hiccups but youre never back at square one even if thats what it feels like i promise

 

[kimcoffee_]

An ED really is just a diffrent kind of selfharm imo but best of luck

 

[girlwitharose]

If things got better for a bit, I'm sure they'll do the same later on. Like zombiegirl said, healing isn't linear AT ALL!! I've been struggling myself for YEARS and after 8 years of feeling like complete shit, I'm just now starting to feel better about things and feel a difference in everything. I do still have ideations of suicide but I fight the urge. I relate with you on the ED and trust me, that won't help you . It'll only make it worse. I hope you get better if that's what you're looking for.