Been a while since I've posted on here, just wanted to quickly vent since I can't anywhere else.
So I've been going through I guess a "heartbreak" if you can even call it that.
I just can't let go. I'm so obsessed with the idea of what we potentially could have become and I'm too attached to the fantasy of that person. Me being a maladaptive daydreamer just worsens this more. I just don't know what to do anymore and hope this can finally push me to the edge for me to finally ctb.
I just fucking hate this. It always ends up the same. Every option is poison, none being better than the other. It doesn't matter whether I let go or not because in the end I'll still be the one suffering.
So I've been going through I guess a "heartbreak" if you can even call it that.
I just can't let go. I'm so obsessed with the idea of what we potentially could have become and I'm too attached to the fantasy of that person. Me being a maladaptive daydreamer just worsens this more. I just don't know what to do anymore and hope this can finally push me to the edge for me to finally ctb.
I just fucking hate this. It always ends up the same. Every option is poison, none being better than the other. It doesn't matter whether I let go or not because in the end I'll still be the one suffering.
