last ditch effort!

[nymphojuno]

hello!

i've decided on a final plan for my life. i'm putting a significant amount of effort into getting a new job, recovering from alcoholism/self-harm, etc. and if that doesn't work and i fall flat on my face again i'm out. i have my method picked out (partial hanging) and i'm confident that i'll be able to succeed if i need to. i'm in public and god i really hope no one is reading this over my shoulder or something. anyways i've tried so hard for so long and i'm tired. if, for any reason, i fail, it'll be the last time. i hope i can find the peace that i've been searching for.

 

[VoidBlessed]

I did something similar. I resolved to try my very best to make a life for myself that I could actually enjoy living by getting out of the house, being more creative, trying to make new friends, and taking better care of myself. If that didn't work, if I still felt suicidal, I would at least know that I gave it my best shot. My project has failed and I'm planning another suicide attempt, but it's admirable you're dedicating so much effort and I hope it goes well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of it all but anyway I wish you the best in whatever you decide.

 

[sadalways]

I have had these thoughts of climbing out of the hole myself, but personally i'm out of energy or will to even try, let alone the fact that anxiety is gonna be the end of me. But i'm wishing you the best of luck and i hope your plans in bettering yourself succeed and you can be happy