Keep getting told I'm not doing enough.

[missingpeace]

I keep trying to tell people that any attempts to remedy my situation is futile. How do I know? Because I've watched how these entities that are driving me to suicide react with all sorts of people. I've tried so many things. I know there is no hope, talking to me is like talking to someone who has terminal cancer. I'm sick of being told to keep trying and that I'm not doing enough. This is the lecture I get from people all the time. I try not to raise the topic but I cry in the mornings when I think about how much I didn't deserve this fate and how much I've lost and suffered. Then my mom comes in asking the same question 'what is wrong with you'. I tell her it's the same fucking demons bothering me 24/7 and then I get this bullshit lecture. I wish I could just cry in peace and stop being asked to do more because it's not going to work and I just want to fucking go.

 

[jodes2]

Sometimes it's not a question of not doing enough, but just waiting it out and surviving. Things do change. I'm sorry you cry over it please don't beat yourself up, we can all only do our best. We all only have so much motivation, so much inspiration, we can't magic up solutions. You've gotten this far, give yourself a pat on the back for all you have done. You deserve congratulations! It's often hard. I hope you stick at it a bit longer, hopefully your fortunes will change. Well done for all that you have achieved and all the shit you've gone through

 

[FuneralCry]

Those people sound really insensitive, I think that it's best to try to avoid people like that and just not open up to them. It's awful how humans just make things worse when enough suffering already exists here.

 

[missingpeace]

Sometimes it's not a question of not doing enough, but just waiting it out and surviving. Things do change. I'm sorry you cry over it please don't beat yourself up, we can all only do our best. We all only have so much motivation, so much inspiration, we can't magic up solutions. You've gotten this far, give yourself a pat on the back for all you have done. You deserve congratulations! It's often hard. I hope you stick at it a bit longer, hopefully your fortunes will change. Well done for all that you have achieved and all the shit you've gone through

Yes, I guess that is what I've done all this time, things got steadily worse and now it's unbearble, what bothers me are these people just don't take my word for what is happening with me. It's always somebody else's perspective that is right, I've repeated myself upteen times, I'm sick to death of being gaslighted by mother. Anyway, it's just a matter of time now before I'm gone. I will be focusing my entire efforts on leaving instead of trying to convince other people.

Those people sound really insensitive, I think that it's best to try to avoid people like that and just not open up to them. It's awful how humans just make things worse when enough suffering already exists here.

Yes, they are, my mother has always very unempathetic towards me, I grew up as a scapegoat of a narcisstic family. She has always put other people's opinion as true instead of believing what I have said about myself. I will never forgive her for this.

 

[jodes2]

I know it's hard but try not to let gaslighters affect you! Find independence from them and live for yourself