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whalefall1996

whalefall1996

New Member
Aug 4, 2025
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Hi everyone, I am new here but not new to the acceptance of committing suicide...I've spent about 15 years with these feelings and I'm about ready to ctb.

I read the PPH and have decided I want to go by carbon monoxide, and in the book it mentions that you can buy it from commercial gas suppliers as a professional so I'm wondering if people know what sort of jobs allow you to purchase it? I know that I can generate carbon monoxide in other ways but I'm also a professional failure so it feel like it would be fun to maybe re-train and learn something new that will also help me in my future.
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
708
Meat product manufacturer? Carbon monoxide is used to keep meat red.
But to be honest it does not sound viable to get such a job or pretend to be professional
 
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whalefall1996

whalefall1996

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Aug 4, 2025
3
Yeah, I looked into that, but like you said it seems unlikely you can buy it directly without starting your own business or a ton of build up. I was thinking more it might be possible to do a vocational course as a gas technician or gas engineer, but just wanted also to get other people's suggestions. i haven't felt excited about something like this in a long time (though i'm sure it will fade tomorrow)....
 
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kurgan

kurgan

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Jun 6, 2025
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Hi everyone, I am new here but not new to the acceptance of committing suicide...I've spent about 15 years with these feelings and I'm about ready to ctb.

I read the PPH and have decided I want to go by carbon monoxide, and in the book it mentions that you can buy it from commercial gas suppliers as a professional so I'm wondering if people know what sort of jobs allow you to purchase it? I know that I can generate carbon monoxide in other ways but I'm also a professional failure so it feel like it would be fun to maybe re-train and learn something new that will also help me in my future.
Obtaining CO from charcoal and containing it in a well-sealed environment is fairly straightforward.
 

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