scenecore fan
I'm permanently broken.
- Jan 26, 2026
- 38
I think it was yesterday, but this two dudes, oliver tree and gaspi passed away. Personally I've never heard any of tree's songs and my so called bestie introduced me to gaspi's videos years ago but i didn't like them at all (the dude was a straight up asshole).
My point is, they passed away, im not here to laugh at them or anything, but seeing all the ppl close to me mourning them, posting shi bout them in their socials, reposting sad edits n shi, that shi only made me feel worse.
Ppl they've never met died and they talked bout it, reposted and posted non stop. But their years long friend who has mentioned in multiple occasions that she wants to kill herself, the same girl who literally posted about how she was gonna drink and cut herself at 2 am, that girl got only two messages referring to the chance of being gone forever. One saying that was the easy way out, the other just being confused, both i answered and didn't got a single answer back.
Was it bc im not famous? Was the reach of those two artists so great that my "friends" lives were actually affected by their art more than my presence in theirs?
I've always known im replaceable, but damn, seeing how this two guys got more attention than me really hurts, in ways i never thought i would hurt.
this has been eye opening to say the least. Now i REALLY wonder if they'll even care once im gone, i know i sound like an entitled bitch, but this truly is how this situations got me feelin.
My point is, they passed away, im not here to laugh at them or anything, but seeing all the ppl close to me mourning them, posting shi bout them in their socials, reposting sad edits n shi, that shi only made me feel worse.
Ppl they've never met died and they talked bout it, reposted and posted non stop. But their years long friend who has mentioned in multiple occasions that she wants to kill herself, the same girl who literally posted about how she was gonna drink and cut herself at 2 am, that girl got only two messages referring to the chance of being gone forever. One saying that was the easy way out, the other just being confused, both i answered and didn't got a single answer back.
Was it bc im not famous? Was the reach of those two artists so great that my "friends" lives were actually affected by their art more than my presence in theirs?
I've always known im replaceable, but damn, seeing how this two guys got more attention than me really hurts, in ways i never thought i would hurt.
this has been eye opening to say the least. Now i REALLY wonder if they'll even care once im gone, i know i sound like an entitled bitch, but this truly is how this situations got me feelin.
