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The 30% figure is for car on car collision, which would be too high but I won't be in car . Figures vary but multiple sources suggest 10 % survival at 40mph for car vs. pedestrian . Almost certain death at 55mph for car on pedestrian but less exact estimates since pedestrians don't tend to be on roads that high speed.
I'm not happy about that either but as I said earlier- it's lesser of evils and for greater good.
The anxiety and paranoia are only resulting from this situation so this is only solution
Did you try to attempt but u did not go through?
Nobody else will die.
I was supposed to do it successfully last year. The bridge I planned on was closed due to construction and backup bridge I chickened out on. That's when the system took control of me and started giving me demands because I shouldnt have lived past my meant to be death date .
Theres no way a mental health professional wouldn't be extremely concerned at your recent posts. I understand that you fully believe in these messages and you think there is nothing wrong so would you do everyone here 1 favour even though you feel it's pointless? We would like you to repeat everything you said on here to your psychiatrist/Doctor - our concern is genuine and it's abundantly clear to us, but not you, that all this talk of messages and control is a psychotic episode. Even if you don't believe us all, please get checked out with your Dr as you need treated for this condition.
They have been watching me for maybe 5 months or so. Seeing when I go out, who I speak to etc. , making sure I'm following rules. They're either people directly controlling me or are being controlled too to watch me. They're getting closer as a warning. It is not hallucination as I have photos and videos of it. It's not a police or ambulance heli and before the surveillance, helicopters were vary rare where I live
Why can't you just burn any chips out, with a strong magnetic pulse?
There are no chips in my case. I don't understand the forces they use but there's no way I could've had any implants or devices put in me.
So what makes you believe that you're being controlled by external forces, rather than internal ones?
Don't let those in control choose your suicide method.
Because there's a voice in my head that isn't mine, the thoughts aren't mine either. They use words I wouldn't use, talk in a way I wouldn't. They make me do things I wouldn't want to do and made bad things happen that I couldn't have directly myself.
Have tested my theory already as lots of bad things happen each time I break rules . I have lots of other reasons . It is the reason i have to ctb in this way but many reasons I want to die , long before the control started.
Thank you so much for believing me and suggesting other causes. Haven't recently moved. It's not that densely populated. I have travelled since it started, to countryside and city but it still controlled me.
i have to let them. If I choose something else, it will fail and others will die instead
Personally, I do not hate you. When I read your posts, I feel worried, sad, and helpless. Also, I am not happy when someone here dies. Primarily it makes me sad that this person has suffered so much. Only after that comes kind of a sentiment of relief in their place, for being finally free of that pain. It still is tinted with sadness.
I don't think anyone here hates you. Personally, I hope you are able to find peace and simply want you to be able to make well thought out decisions. Your method and behavior worries me bc it puts you at serious risk of injury, and will traumatize and may injure others
I have mental illness too. I have had severe OCD starting when I was 7. My mom was bedridden and my grandmother came to take care of us. There was a lot of stress between my dad and grandmother and my sister and grandmother. I had to touch things a certain number of times or I was convinced my mom and grandma would die. I would literally hear someone telling me in my mind that I had to do that. Nobody hates you. I can tell you that no one will die if you don't go through with your plan but if you do, you will traumatize someone for life. When that happens, the trauma alters the persons brain chemistry and creates mental illness in them. Trust me, I understand how convincing those feelings can be. But I can tell you that no one will die if you don't go through with your plan. If you don't go through with it, you will actually save lives. Everyone posts here not because they hate you but because they care about you. Exiting is one thing, but doing it with a rational clearer mind with no deceptions is much better. Believe me, your mind is deceiving you.
Not at all! I'm sorry, we shouldn't be trying to diagnose you-you're right we are not doctors. But really whatever you are dealing with you need help. There are professionals that will know how to deal with this.
Voices and seemingly foreign thoughts can definitely originate from ones own brain. If you look into the tulpa community, you'll find people voluntarily inducing such conditions.
You're not being hated. You might be poorly understood, and people might not agree with your conclusions, but I see no hate here.
