Venting It's not important

[crimson blue]

Each day that passes I feel more and more suicidal, I'm tired I just want to stop trying.
Ahhhh (imagine I'm screaming) Ahhhh! Life is hard I really wish to sleep and never wake up.

 

[theboy]

me 2

 

[sleeps]

i feel just the same. im so over all of this. trying is exhausting and i don't see the point anyway. i have no hope for anything except that i may find it in me to escape for good

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings of wishing to be free from everything are understandable. Everything is tiring to me as well, I'm tired of being trapped here where only endless and pointless suffering lies ahead. I get that it can be so dreadful having to wake up when you wish not to, if only dying is as easy as just choosing to never wake again then that would be ideal but unfortunately that is not the reality.

 

[Maudlin]

Each day that passes I feel more and more suicidal, I'm tired I just want to stop trying.
Ahhhh (imagine I'm screaming) Ahhhh! Life is hard I really wish to sleep and never wake up.

I go through bouts like that often... punctuated with episodes of terrifying irritability and self pity.

I can't stand the pain I'm in. My mind won't stop lingering on everything I see around me that I know could bring me my end. It's a terrible game I play with myself- trying.

I take no pleasure in your pain, but I take pleasure in the distraction you and others here afford me from my own mind.

I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[Wormfood]

Some days are going to be like that and some aren't. It's okay to feel the way you do. We all feel it too. You're important.

 

[Nikki2020]

me too. its painful being here.

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

Me too. Soooo. Much. Awful. Every day. And it just gets worse & worse.

 

[outrider567]

Me too. Soooo. Much. Awful. Every day. And it just gets worse & worse.

Yes--Each day just gets worse and worse

 

[BipolarExpress]

I think that's a feeling many people on this forum will recognize.

 

[Nirrend]

Each day that passes I feel more and more suicidal, I'm tired I just want to stop trying.
Ahhhh (imagine I'm screaming) Ahhhh! Life is hard I really wish to sleep and never wake up.

Hi sweet @i_tried_it

I'm sorry you're going through all this.

Life is really not a simple thing, sometimes you wonder if you don't have to be trained to handle the things that happen to you over time.

I'm sorry, I guess you feel lonely, maybe sometimes you feel tense or like your body is too tight? You know, like you're trapped in it

I can imagine how much you suffer and I understand you, your suffering is legitimate ❤

Just like a lot of people here, you are brave! Welcome to the club ❤

Some days are harder than others, but don't forget, there are also and will surely be others that will be just as wonderful ❤

Whatever you choose to do, ideally, I wish and believe in it, I would like you to find your happiness, to blossom in this life ❤

If you're thinking about suicide, don't be ashamed, you're not the only one, we love you here

Anyway, everyone is free to do what they want with themselves!

I wish you the best, looking forward to seeing you around!

Love ❤

 

[SarRy]

Forget this "not important" nonsense. Your feelings are important, most of all to you. We're here because we want to be open and honest with what we're going through. Whatever way people find peace, at least they can talk honestly about it here. Now, I don't know if you want advice or not, but if you do, then try posting about your situation on the recovery side of the site. Sometimes it can help to hear a third party perspective. I know, it's hard to look at yourself with compassion sometimes, especially in a cruel world that often doesn't care. Still, we're here to help each other. Your feelings do matter. Your life is important. And, forget those who make you feel otherwise. Everybody else is playing like they matter, so why shouldn't you?

I don't know if that helps any, but I just want to tell you that here, we care.

With all that being said, I hope you find peace.

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

Me too. Soooo. Much. Awful. Every And it just gets worse & worse.

Yes--Each day just gets worse and worse

Hugs

 

[crimson blue]

Thank you for your answers. I don't know how I feel right now, when I wrote this thread I just wanted to get all this off my chest and I didn't know what to name it, the first thing that came to my mind was "it's not important". Seriously thank you all.