Venting itd stay the same

[maplebar]

When i think about CTB i often think about the day after, i dont think anything would be different. My friend would be fine because he clearly has other people he probably bonds better with than me. My family will probably be sad, but i cant say their feelings matter to me at this point
No ones going to care for me, no one does now. They only care when you're gone, and its horrible how true that is.
Sometimes I just leave my phone for a day or too, usually weekends. I dont speak to anyone besides those I see in person.
Nothing happens, no texts, nothing.
I wonder what i'm still here for

 

[strawberrypinkloves]

I understand. I feel like nothing lasts forever. When I die, I'll die. People will be sad. People will mourn me. But that's a natural part of human life. It kind of feels like you're stranded on an island in a way. Anyways, I wish you lots of love & comfort <3. I understand completely how you feel.