It isn't getting better

[Tionally]

I've had many roblems before but derealization sucks the most. I already felt terribly with anhedonia and other things but now with depersonalization and derealization even dying feels pointless. I already feel dead. I don't have motivation to do anything even to plan my own death. It seems like such a hassle: getting necessary stuff, finding a place, writing goodbyes..

But living doesn't hold any appeal anymore. Even less than before.

And it I think it only got worse since I realized I had derealization. I feel like I barely exist anymore and I don't want to do anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so dreadful and tiring, I really wish that it's more straightforward to finally be free from this existence. But anyway best wishes.

 

[backtoearth]

I am sorry you also feel like this, I have lived with it for around 4 years now and it is one of the most isolating ways to experience life.

I understand how everything just feels bleak and grey, I hope you have a moment where you feel grounded and alive soon <3

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

same here i dont even have the motivation to plan ctb anymore