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riel439

riel439

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Mar 20, 2026
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(Disclaimer: My english might be bad because it's not my first language and I apologize for that :))).)

My first attempt was me overdosing olanzapine. I took 10 pills of it. I just felt drowsy and my whole body felt tingly after it and I was taken to the hospital and was admitted to a psych ward for almost a month. It was such a bad experience.

I have also tried ligature strangulation and tourniquet method but unfortunately, I can't compress my carotid arteries properly. Everytime I try doing these methods, my head always feels like it's gonna explode. I never pass out from those methods.

I can't do any type of hanging because our house doesn't have any sturdy object where I put my scarf, belt or anything that can be used for hanging.

I don't want to jump from a high building or jump on a train because I don't want to traumatize other people.

I can't do the inert gases method and sodium nitrite method because those are not easily accessible in my country. Also, I'm broke.

I just want to die and I feel so stupid and helpless because I can't find a method that will 100% kill me. Does anyone here know any other method that are successful and quick? Thank you.
 
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BrokenByTheSystem

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Mar 23, 2026
51
Sometimes I think using a gun is the only way. It's fast and reliable.

The problem is difficult access to it, especially if you're not from US. I sometimes think about trying to steal a cop, if I succeed I get the gun, if not, I get shot anyway.
 
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TheTwelthRootOfTwo

TheTwelthRootOfTwo

Uccidimi, Addesso!
Mar 16, 2026
419
(Disclaimer: My english might be bad because it's not my first language and I apologize for that :))).)

My first attempt was me overdosing olanzapine. I took 10 pills of it. I just felt drowsy and my whole body felt tingly after it and I was taken to the hospital and was admitted to a psych ward for almost a month. It was such a bad experience.

I have also tried ligature strangulation and tourniquet method but unfortunately, I can't compress my carotid arteries properly. Everytime I try doing these methods, my head always feels like it's gonna explode. I never pass out from those methods.

I can't do any type of hanging because our house doesn't have any sturdy object where I put my scarf, belt or anything that can be used for hanging.

I don't want to jump from a high building or jump on a train because I don't want to traumatize other people.

I can't do the inert gases method and sodium nitrite method because those are not easily accessible in my country. Also, I'm broke.

I just want to die and I feel so stupid and helpless because I can't find a method that will 100% kill me. Does anyone here know any other method that are successful and quick? Thank you.
Not sure what to say, but I tried the same thing with Olanzapine in 2009, but I took more than 10. It was a very unpleasant experience. I slept for almost 3 days.
 
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BrokenByTheSystem

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Mar 23, 2026
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Not sure what to say, but I tried the same thing with Olanzapine in 2009, but I took more than 10. It was a very unpleasant experience. I slept for almost 3 days.
Why unpleasant? Besides sleeping I assume, because sleeping is good isn't? At least you kind of forget about existence.
 
TheTwelthRootOfTwo

TheTwelthRootOfTwo

Uccidimi, Addesso!
Mar 16, 2026
419
Why unpleasant? Besides sleeping I assume, because sleeping is good isn't? At least you kind of forget about existence.
Unfortunately, I wasn't totally asleep the whole time. I had several moments of lucidity and that was where things got unpleasant. I kept having this weird, unexplainable feeling inside my body that made me feel like I needed to jump out of my skin. It was like having "Restless Leg Syndrome", but 100X worse and ALL OVER my ENTIRE body. Awful.
 
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SMxj9

30y old from 🇧🇷
Mar 28, 2026
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Unfortunately, I wasn't totally asleep the whole time. I had several moments of lucidity and that was where things got unpleasant. I kept having this weird, unexplainable feeling inside my body that made me feel like I needed to jump out of my skin. It was like having "Restless Leg Syndrome", but 100X worse and ALL OVER my ENTIRE body. Awful.
akatisia probably
 
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MatiSendiri

The world is still unfair to me
Jun 8, 2025
166
(Disclaimer: My english might be bad because it's not my first language and I apologize for that :))).)

My first attempt was me overdosing olanzapine. I took 10 pills of it. I just felt drowsy and my whole body felt tingly after it and I was taken to the hospital and was admitted to a psych ward for almost a month. It was such a bad experience.

I have also tried ligature strangulation and tourniquet method but unfortunately, I can't compress my carotid arteries properly. Everytime I try doing these methods, my head always feels like it's gonna explode. I never pass out from those methods.

I can't do any type of hanging because our house doesn't have any sturdy object where I put my scarf, belt or anything that can be used for hanging.

I don't want to jump from a high building or jump on a train because I don't want to traumatize other people.

I can't do the inert gases method and sodium nitrite method because those are not easily accessible in my country. Also, I'm broke.

I just want to die and I feel so stupid and helpless because I can't find a method that will 100% kill me. Does anyone here know any other method that are successful and quick? Thank you.
From my experience here, try amygdalin and vitamin C combination. If both is consumed at the same time, cyanide will be formed inside your body and you can ctb quickly. Both is also very easy to buy (since both are considered supplements), so I think you can use this method.
 
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riel439

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From my experience here, try amygdalin and vitamin C combination. If both is consumed at the same time, cyanide will be formed inside your body and you can ctb quickly. Both is also very easy to buy (since both are considered supplements), so I think you can use this method.
Actually, I don't think that I could use this method because amygdalin is really hard to find in my country which is Philippines. Also, the ones that I find online are way too out of my budget. Btw, are you planning to use this method?
 
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eggsausagerice

last chance for cake!
Apr 21, 2025
1,373
From my experience here, try amygdalin and vitamin C combination. If both is consumed at the same time, cyanide will be formed inside your body and you can ctb quickly.
has this been tested before?
 
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cluefixphantom

Student
Feb 19, 2026
158
I think the CO method is the best if you can get it right once.

If I had access, I would choose a firearm or Fentanyl or Morphine + Vomex A and SN. Or instead of SN, antifreeze or methanol.

There are some cheap substances that can poison the body fatally in many stores, but the problem is the pain, and it can take a long time. Without painkillers, it's a terrible way to die–something you would only wish on your worst enemies.
 
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beyonddone

tried&failed fighting against corrupt family court
Sep 9, 2024
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(Disclaimer: My english might be bad because it's not my first language and I apologize for that :))).)

My first attempt was me overdosing olanzapine. I took 10 pills of it. I just felt drowsy and my whole body felt tingly after it and I was taken to the hospital and was admitted to a psych ward for almost a month. It was such a bad experience.

I have also tried ligature strangulation and tourniquet method but unfortunately, I can't compress my carotid arteries properly. Everytime I try doing these methods, my head always feels like it's gonna explode. I never pass out from those methods.

I can't do any type of hanging because our house doesn't have any sturdy object where I put my scarf, belt or anything that can be used for hanging.

I don't want to jump from a high building or jump on a train because I don't want to traumatize other people.

I can't do the inert gases method and sodium nitrite method because those are not easily accessible in my country. Also, I'm broke.

I just want to die and I feel so stupid and helpless because I can't find a method that will 100% kill me. Does anyone here know any other method that are successful and quick? Thank you.
Check my last posts, i think the little pot fire in a confined area will work…
 
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perishsong

it/she
Sep 10, 2025
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I just want to die and I feel so stupid and helpless because I can't find a method that will 100% kill me.
I'm certain it's not simply a "you" problem. If there was the method that always works, there wouldn't be many resources for alternatives, and/or it would get banned worldwide (just like it's near impossible to find legit source of "gold standard" N, or the onslaught of welfare checks on UK residents who bought SN...). Personally, I plan to CTB by CO poisoning, and since possession of sulfuric acid is highly regulated where I live, I gotta go the good ole charcoal way.
 
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beyonddone

tried&failed fighting against corrupt family court
Sep 9, 2024
31
I'm certain it's not simply a "you" problem. If there was the method that always works, there wouldn't be many resources for alternatives, and/or it would get banned worldwide (just like it's near impossible to find legit source of "gold standard" N, or the onslaught of welfare checks on UK residents who bought SN...). Personally, I plan to CTB by CO poisoning, and since possession of sulfuric acid is highly regulated where I live, I gotta go the good ole charcoal way.
Hey im doing the same! Either tonight or tomorrow! Using both monoxide & dioxide just doubling to make sure it works, tried & failed too many times im not doing that again! I just got the charcoal… bought a small clay pot & saucer & foil & the insant light charcoal (says the instant gives off way more carbon monoxide …
But yea im gonna make a little mini fire pit, im stuck living in my car which i cant do anymore (1 of the many many reasons) apparently letting that burn for only 15 min is fatal…then adding the dioxide (which i tried by itself (dry ice) & didnt work, maybe the weather here maybe didnt buy enough)
It was SO HARD to get AI to answer these questions for me 👇🏼
Posted on here yesterday morning asking for feedback but idk if my post went thru!
Anyways goodluck to you, i hope the CO way works for both of us! And if im not back on here on sunday anyone paying attention to my posts will know exactly what to do, also this way is much less painful than majority other ways!
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