Is there a point of becoming a better person when you are apathetic/can't accept what you done or have a very fragile ego?

[Always-in-trouble]

I lack empathy and can't relate to struggles other then my own. I also hate of being dutiful and serving a moral good or helping a larger cause other then myself because of that and because I don't think I actually want to change, I lived with my delusions with being famous and having a lifelog hedonistic streak or being famous or wanting to childlessly fix a problem without any effort, instead of just actually sucking it up and doing something.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I suppose it depends really. Will doing nothing continue to not affect you in life? To some extent, I'd say a lot of us do altruistic things or pursue goals to benefit ourselves. It's rare (in my experience) to find a totally altruistic person.

But- it likely depends on just how much you neglect the things expected of you or make the decision to do nothing to work towards ambitions.

The likelihood I imagine is that- if you are able bodied and expect other people to carry you- they may resent that and get frustrated with you. Then it depends on whether you can comfortably live with that. Alternatively, they may refuse to keep helping. So then- it's whether you can survive on your own.

It depends on the people around you I suppose and what they expect of you. How conditional their treatment of you is on fulfilling some expectations. With friendships, if it's all take- people may not tolerate that. So- it's kind of whether you can live without people. Or, whether people see other qualities in you to want to be around you.

Regarding pursuing goals and becoming famous- it seems more likely you would be famous for something so- I imagine some effort would be required. Plenty of people are famous for pursuing selfish ambitions though so- that should be possible I imagine. In fact, I imagine a fair amount of famous people do have quite a single minded, selfish streak.

You probably need to weigh it up though. Will not becoming famous really hurt your ego? In which case- is it worth at least trying for? Can you tolerate failure along the way? Maybe never seeming to succeed? That's also a possibility. Or, can you be comfortable aiming for less? I think sometimes it's trying to find the lesser of the evils in life. So- which we can tolerate less or more.