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stellaburner

Member
May 1, 2023
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i think i look disgusting. everyone around me disagrees but i think they're lying to me. i have seen myself from every angle and i still think i'm hideous. plastic surgery won't be an option for at least 2.5 ish years. even if i did get plastic surgery i wouldn't want to pass on my genes to a kid. which rlly sucks, bc i honestly would love being a mom. i just don't feel like i can be happy in this body no matter what. is it worth living the rest of my life as an ugly person and having to deal with the insecurity, self hatred, and social consequences? or is ctb a better option? (in your opinion)
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
I am very ugly

so don't try to convince me that

I'm a very beautiful person

because at the end of the day

I hate myself in every single way

And I'm not going to lie to myself by saying

There's Beauty inside of me that matters

So rest assured I will always remind myself

That I am a worthless, terrible person

And nothing you say will make me believe

I still deserve love

Because no matter what

I am not good enough to be loved

And I am in no position to believe that

Beauty does exist Within Me

Because whenever I look in the mirror I always think

Am I as ugly as people say?

NOW, READ FROM THE BOTTOM TO TOP
 
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jaxxon_sunn

jaxxon_sunn

Un jour je serai de retour près de toi
May 10, 2023
99
I see many people online that society deems as "ugly" and they can still find love and live fulfilling lives. They might get some hate from trolls and superficial people, but its better to ignore them and live as you would without listening to them. I think it is better to build your personality and be a good person than be hateful and attractive. There are so many people that see past the surface and choose to learn about you as a person, not your looks. As for kids, you can adopt or foster, which is just as fulfilling or have biological kids and see past your looks. If plastic surgery would make you feel a lot more confident I would say go for it, just don't get too much and forget yourself. Ask for advice from good plastic surgeons that want to help you be the best version of yourself and not ones that only care about the money and persuading you to get a bunch of surgeries. I have body and face dysmorphia so I constantly see my imperfections and ugliness, but I see everyone around me and I haven't seen a single person that I think is ugly. I love seeing unique people and those that don't fit into the beauty standards of society. For me, I see peoples personalities and that determines if they're an ugly person to me or not, not their looks. That's just what I think and my perspective.
 
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Baron

Baron

Is there a meaning to anything?
Jun 29, 2023
115
I think that generally speaking ctb never is a bad choice. Even if you enjoy life, death will free you from everything, the bad and the good feelings. And if there is only bad feelings then there is no reason to wait for death to come to you.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,245
It's up to you deciding what to do, I could personally never wish to endure existence under any circumstances, I don't see existence as being desirable at all.
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,216
Looks are very subjective. You are not ugly and don't let anybody tell you otherwise. You are unique and beautiful. The people who think you are ugly are the real ugly ones. However, I can't really say too much about having kids because I am for the most part an antinatalist.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,510
I am very ugly

so don't try to convince me that

I'm a very beautiful person

because at the end of the day

I hate myself in every single way

And I'm not going to lie to myself by saying

There's Beauty inside of me that matters

So rest assured I will always remind myself

That I am a worthless, terrible person

And nothing you say will make me believe

I still deserve love

Because no matter what

I am not good enough to be loved

And I am in no position to believe that

Beauty does exist Within Me

Because whenever I look in the mirror I always think

Am I as ugly as people say?

NOW, READ FROM THE BOTTOM TO TOP
That is really cool. Thanks for posting this.
 
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TDF

TDF

Meh might as well die
Jun 24, 2023
475
Yes it is absolutely worth living as an ugly person. What does ugly even mean really, it's very subjective, someone out there will like the way you look no matter what. Without sounding cliched, alot of people don't care about looks at all. I though understand it must feel terrible believing that you are ugly and society wouldn't accept you. That is a different thing though.
 
Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
, someone out there will like the way you look no matter what
yeah but its estimated we interact with about 80,000 people during our lifetime a very small percentage of the population, only about 1 percent of them would be nearly the same age as you
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,510
I think most people can differentiate between beautiful people and not so beautiful people. Now, who one is attracted to is a different question.
 
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