Venting is it normal to feel this empty?

[cats333]

basically, i just stop feeling anything after like 10 pm and thats just bc i run out of work to do around that time. if i finish earlier it happens earlier but it especially becomes difficult after 9-10, i dont know what it is ab night time but i suddenly feel so dull and emotionless, and thats saying a lot considering i havent felt a full emotion in so long. sometimes it hits at class and i cant socialize anymore. i cant cry, i cant treat anyone how they deserve, i cant feel. what is my problem why cant i just be sad instead? why do i have to be so dead if i am alive? i dont know, im rambling, im sorry