Introduce yourself

[hollowmom]

Hi!

New to the forums and still trying to figure everything out here, so hope I am doing this right!

I am a 30+ YO Female from the states.

I have been married to my husband for almost 10 years and we have one child together. I have severe anxiety and depression to some degree. These have been complicated due to the current state of the world/usa, the resentment/bullying in my marriage, lack of family, and my special needs child's lack of access to appropriate resources. I frequently ping pong between wanting to CTB daily and desperately wanting to live. I have seen countless therapists and tried numerous medications over the past 15+ years yet nothing seems to stick. Last year I attended a partial hospitalization program which helped for a big but now I am right back where I started.

I joined this site for a sense of community. Where I can talk openly about my fears, feelings, and desires to CTB without being involuntarily committed.

Thank you for having me.

 

[zyprexa]

you probably know this but just in case, your DMs are still locked and you don't have access to the chat yet. you should make more comments/posts to unlock them. :)

haha yep I know but thank you ^_^ my mind is such a mess that I it takes forever to write anything, but I'm slowly working on it >_<

 

[Unseelie]

Hiiii I'm Seelie! I'm 23, trans, and just trying to be okay. I like ttrpgs hehehe. So if you wanna talk to me about different role-playing games you like, hmu :3

 

[kittycore]

hii all! I've been quietly browsing this place for a while, finally felt brave enough to make an account

I'm 22f from the US, and love reading novels, hiking, baking, and collecting plushies =) my bed is basically a sea of them lol. I'm here because I'm a complete wreck of a person and my life is being swallowed up by anxiety. I frequently don't eat for days, going anywhere feels like a monumental task, and I self harm constantly to cope with it now. I'm hoping to ctb in the coming months, because I desperatelyyy want to escape it all and I'm not sure I have any other option atp. I wish I could erase myself from existence along with any memories others have of me honestly

anyways, until then I'll probably be around often! seems like there's a lot of kind / understanding people in this community

 

[throwaway123]

I am M24 from Germany, I've been absent here for a couple of years, now back since things are worse again. Nothing has really changed, I just stuffed the depression down and its come back up or should I say my life is still shit.
i meditate sometimes but it doesnt do shit