Help I'm worried that they want to put me in the psychiatric hospital again

[scriptedsad]

2 weeks ago I came out of a psychiatric hospitalization that I can describe as the worst nightmare of my life and I managed to get out pretending to be better in front of the doctors, telling them what they wanted to hear, acting as they wanted to see me. But the truth is that day by day I feel worse and worse and I can't find a second of peace. The only thing in my head is anger towards myself and the desire to end everything and no matter how hard I try, the pain that my own existence causes me does not go away, it becomes bigger and bigger. I find myself living on automatic, trying to be seen as best as possible.

Tomorrow I'm going to see my psychiatrist, and I'll have to lie to him so that he doesn't recommend going back to where I was two weeks ago. I can safely say that it was hell. So I'll keep rotting on antidepressants, antipsychotics and my mind

 

[FuneralCry]

That really does sound so horrible, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[LunarEc]

Same Im scared shitless of going back there

 

[RegretedFeeling]

I'm in the observation unit before the let me in gen pop. Im here for me at this moment and I am formed, that said... I can leave when ever I want.

How you ask?!

Usually the need four reasons to hold you, clear concrete reasons, with out four they got nothing but will still try(hurt yourself or others is one, NOT 2). That's when you ask for a lawyer and then ask for an n independent review board. While your at it ask for a laptop to look up your various rights and resources and a phone to call them with.

Usually by negotiating like this they don't want to play the game anymore?!?!

I get a little evil when I do this as it gets the (you don't want to fuck with this) outta the box

My record is 2.5 hours starting in ambulance, 72 hour form, at hospital and back home.