RustedandWeathered
Addicted to cutting myself.
- May 7, 2026
- 10
I no longer want to live. I wanted to live a tiny bit. But now? I don't want to live at all. I've accepted that I'm a useless human being. I've been suffering since April 2024 and I think June 15th is the time for me to kill myself. I'm still debating on how I'll kill myself. I want a messy, bloody way to kill myself though. Like I want to stab myself. Or slit my throat. Or slit my wrists deep enough to hit my arteries and bleed out. I'll cut to the bone. I'll have the fucking courage to because I'm so tired of this life full of despair, pain, and guilt. I'm so fucking pathetic for not cutting deep. Or starving myself. I'm gonna start doing both of those again. And I'm gonna start purging again.. I'm gonna try to slowly kill myself. I don't care about anything anymore. Especially myself. If my family tries to ask if I'm okay? I'll just tell them "Yeah, I'm okay." Even though I'd be bleeding into my clothes after I cut myself.. I don't want them to even have a clue before they find their "special little girl" dead and a bloody mess. I'm gonna eat once a day in very small portions. I'm gonna try to cut to the dermis again. And then deeper.
