I’m terrified of failing my attempt

[Michael_the_ratman]

Last night, I took 21 pills of calcium. I don't know why I did it, I knew it wouldn't kill me but I expected it to make me sick. It's been 17 hours, and I have no symptoms.

Since I reacted so well to the "calcium overdose", I'm scared SN won't kill me. SN is obviously much stronger than calcium pills, so if it doesn't work I'm terrified of the permanent damage I'll have. I need to CTB but the fear of becoming a vegetable is stopping me. Please send me courage…

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Eh...

Calcium and SN aren't exactly the same.

Sorry you struggle but users can't send you courage. Against the rules.

I suggest to read and research carefully. You can maybe read here

SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

I just had a thought. When taking sn can regular tap water be used? Or is it necessary to use something like purified bottled water or distilled water?

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from all the suffering and I wish you the best, I find it cruel how people even have to worry about that in the first place, trying to die going wrong and ending up in a situation of worse agony is also what I'd fear.