Help Im suffering, major depressio, idk what to do

[GabrielMen]

I have been incredibly depressed for quiet a bit now. Im 23, since i dont find a fix to my life, im looking for a method that will 100% do the job. I have been considering stabbing my neck since i dont have a lot of resources, money, or energy for a better method. I have been told that stabbing my neck is not a viable method so now im really lost and dont know what to do. I have access to shrooms and maybe that can give me enough courage to do something crazy but i sont wanna survive and be disabled for attempting something stupid. I could save some money to buy a fire arm but i have a history of suicidality so i dont know if they are gonna allow me to buy a gun. I live in the U.S and also just discovered my family talking shit about me behind my back. They think o have normal depression like them and i complain way too much. Shut thr fuck up! I have a different kind of depression that makes me completely disfunctional in society and of course i consider myself an intelligent person without any disability but here i am

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

I am sorry for you, most people don't take depression seriously until the person actually goes. That's just human nature sadly.

 

[LittleJem]

Have you tried the shrooms in general? Here is some info about playlists - https://hub.jhu.edu/2020/11/11/psychedelic-psilocybin-playlist/. Take a good dose of them with a playlist, headphones, eye mask.

I'm guessing you have tried some medication? If not, or if you have, I'd urge you to keep trying medication. Maybe lithium or lamotrigine might make this different for you....

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish for a guaranteed method to free myself from future suffering, to me it feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[LittleJem]

I'm on quietipane and I have to admit it is helping today

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I have access to shrooms and maybe that can give me enough courage to do something crazy but i sont wanna survive and be disabled for attempting something stupid.

Yeah, shrooms and psychedelics in general probably shouldn't be taken while you are in a bad state mentally. While they can lower your SI and even help you come to accept death and fear it less, there is a strong chance of you have a bad trip if you take them while not in a good headspace. Bad trips can be traumatic for some and there have been cases of people who've developed PTSD because they took them while not in a good headspace and/or setting. There is also the risk of them causing you to act on impulse, which, as you've stated, could end with you disabling yourself.

Suggesting methods also isn't allowed. Here is the suicide resource compilation.

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Also, if you can access it and haven't tried it out already, I'd recommend looking into some treatment options first before attempting or anything. Attempting can be really dangerous and there is nearly always a chance, no matter how small it is, that you'll survive an attempt.

 

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Spero che tu possa trovare la pace che stai cercando
e avere una terapia cognitivo-comportamentale indolore