Venting I'm so stupid

[hopeless302]

I miss the kid I used to be. I was full of hope. Optimistic. Hard working. That kid is dead now, but he'd be disgusted to see what I've become.
Who knew emptiness could be so crushing

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

it was better to be a child than an adult, we just didnt know it back then.

 

[makethepainstop]

I miss the kid I used to be. I was full of hope. Optimistic. Hard working. That kid is dead now, but he'd be disgusted to see what I've become.
Who knew emptiness could be so crushing

I know I feel the same way!

 

[Doom]

My kid self was happy and smart; the adult was ruined by endless disappointments and contempt.

 

[damaged_soul]

I don't miss the kid I was. I was naive and ignorant. I'm glad I woke up and realized the cold dark truth about the world.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I don't miss the kid I was. I was naive and ignorant. I'm glad I woke up and realized the cold dark truth about the world.

while true , they also say "Ignorance is Bliss."

 

[Silent.Tears]

Ohhhh..... Mann yess, I can relate. While I didn't grow up in an ideal household(school wasn't the best either), I often look back and try to figure out what went wrong. And I'm always amazed what an understanding, hardworking kid I was. I believe kids are very different from each other just like different kinds of colors. Some kids flourish in one environment while other may not in the same environment, do you get my point? And I may not have been in the worst environment, but it wasn't ideal for me either. That, including all the factors in my life, now I'm just a meatball. I try to be kind to myself but I really hate myself.
Don't worry, friend, I'm stupid as well.

 

[Pluto]

Something about my childhood was golden despite the slowly-snowballing impacts of abuse. Nothing about it was setting me up to grow into a functional man, so I was free to live in my own fantasy world until one day it all came crashing down.

 

[Teddybear]

I'd rather be dead than a child again. But being 34 and dancing under the open sky … yeah, that'd be nice.

 

[Doom]

while true , they also say "Ignorance is Bliss."

certainly, the world for a child seems magical because they are ignorant. They believe in ghosts, Santa Claus or whatever fantastic story you tell them and they won't be punished for being ignorant because they are children.
Definitely the only phase of my life that was really worth living, I should have died before I was 13.

 

[Girl-shaped Wound]

I miss the kid I used to be. I was full of hope. Optimistic. Hard working. That kid is dead now, but he'd be disgusted to see what I've become.
Who knew emptiness could be so crushing

You know what's funny? Those are my exact thoughts from when I was 10. Ten.

 

[Prescott241]

As a kid, I was very much a perfectionist and utopian-minded. As time has gone on, I have degraded to the point where my outlook on life is the complete opposite. Society to me now seems so sacrificial, and the innermost depraved desires of the public and people that call the shots are disguised in an aura of pseudo-normality and false sanity. This wouldn't matter so much if I felt like a belonged to a group of people who valued sanity and fraternalism between all members of a community (including both men and women). That's what would make me the happiest person in the world, being involved in a community, even a small community, where all members value each other in a brotherly love kind of way (also including women). It would be a perfect little coven or enclave of sanity in an insane world. A man can dream, I suppose.

 

[Teddybear]

As a kid I was a nothing but a victim, unable to defend myself. Then I managed to get out, make something of myself and shuff my success in everybody's face.

Now I am old, fat and can't stand the stress no more. I am back to being defenseless, waiting to become someone's victim - again.

The escape from youth is called "adulthood". The only exit from old age is known as death.