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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
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I see them all the time on Instagram:

people on the roof of very tall buildings doing acrobatics, hanging by one hand, climbing buildings with their bare hands...

It makes me so jealous, since I can't even find a place to jump... they have the opportunity and I don't.
 
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Lapdog6795

Lapdog6795

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Life is not fair.
 
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tooafraidtodiez

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Apr 29, 2026
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I have access to a 20+ story building. But everytime i'm on the edge about to drop, my SI will kick in and the fact that there will be that 3-4 second of pure terror from falling down, I just couldn't do it. Luckily i also have access to SN just in case i have to ctb someday
 
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Front Back

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Apr 27, 2026
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I see them all the time on Instagram:

people on the roof of very tall buildings doing acrobatics, hanging by one hand, climbing buildings with their bare hands...

It makes me so jealous, since I can't even find a place to jump... they have the opportunity and I don't.
Well it's easier to gain access to building if you don't look like you trying to jump, good luck tho
 
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endboss

endboss

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Apr 8, 2026
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I see them all the time on Instagram:

people on the roof of very tall buildings doing acrobatics, hanging by one hand, climbing buildings with their bare hands...

It makes me so jealous, since I can't even find a place to jump... they have the opportunity and I don't.
I am also jealous of these roofers, but mostly because they are so healthy and fearless:)
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,248
Do you have self-service access? What country are you in? Is the ground hard? Is there anything to slow the fall?
@tooafraidtodiez
 
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