Im so far gone.

[Lou_Charthethird]

I dont remember what comfort feels like anymore, or how to achieve it. Or how to want to achieve it.

I feel so far removed from being a human.
There is no part of me that is left anymore.
That innate ability to want things, its just not there. I just exist, floating in space.

I dont consider myself me. I make choices that i wouldnt have made if i wasnt like this, think things i wouldnt have thought, feel things(or better yet dont feel things) a certain way that isnt real.

None of this is real actually. Its like my brain cannot comprehend the fact that i exist right now. I cannot accept that things are happening right now even if i tried

Or maybe im making this all up. I mean whos to say anything i say is true? I can rven differentiate what is real and what isnt, what is innate and what is forced, what is me and what isnt. Whos to say this isnt me incorporating symptoms iveseen elsewhere when in reality something entirely different is happening

My trauma is gone as if it never happened. I dont evn have problems talking about it, im not scared of it, it doesnt affect me whatsoever anymore. Nothing impacts how i act- i am a dog without a leash, with no idea where to go.

I dont know when im gonna die or how, but what choice do i have but killing myself? Truly. Talk Therapy is a scam, and meds dont so anything.

 

[Daisy88_99]

This is off topic but I love your profile pic, that animation is actually hypnotic.

 

[HeyBoogahJr]

I dont remember what comfort feels like anymore, or how to achieve it. Or how to want to achieve it.

I feel so far removed from being a human.
There is no part of me that is left anymore.
That innate ability to want things, its just not there. I just exist, floating in space.

I dont consider myself me. I make choices that i wouldnt have made if i wasnt like this, think things i wouldnt have thought, feel things(or better yet dont feel things) a certain way that isnt real.

None of this is real actually. Its like my brain cannot comprehend the fact that i exist right now. I cannot accept that things are happening right now even if i tried

Or maybe im making this all up. I mean whos to say anything i say is true? I can rven differentiate what is real and what isnt, what is innate and what is forced, what is me and what isnt. Whos to say this isnt me incorporating symptoms iveseen elsewhere when in reality something entirely different is happening

My trauma is gone as if it never happened. I dont evn have problems talking about it, im not scared of it, it doesnt affect me whatsoever anymore. Nothing impacts how i act- i am a dog without a leash, with no idea where to go.

I dont know when im gonna die or how, but what choice do i have but killing myself? Truly. Talk Therapy is a scam, and meds dont so anything.

I understand how you feel. I've dealt with so many similar feelings. Do you overthink things too? I sort of used to do that until it felt like I never was me to begin with. Who was I?

I'm sorry to hear that nothing seems to be working for you right now. I hope you feel better soon, or come to a decision you are content with.

I'm here if you wanna talk. :)