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Feb 10, 2026
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dont know if Im allowed to make a post about this, but after realizing that I'm gonna die alone after my friend I obsessed over just admitted that she only sees me as a "casual" friend and always will, I snapped and took 7 nsaids....

Im supposed to wait for at least four hours, right? I have a garbage bag and everything in case I vomit but I havent ate anything all day....I'm around 160-180lbs and 5'0. As far as I know I only have high blood pressure or at risk of high blood pressure and Im not on any meds for it. Do I have no chance here to die? I know OD'ing barely does anything but I at least wanna say that I attempted and tried to die rather than just stall. PSH isnt working for me either.....

I only feel a weird prickling sensation around my chest and arm every now and then. My stomach is starting to hurt too but idk if thats because I havent ate yet or what. We'll see ig. If people reply to this and nothing happens then I'll do updates, especially tomorrow.
 
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I am planning to use a gun because it's most certain. You need to lie down and rest for the full effects to take place
 
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honestly, with nsaids, i think you're gonna have a really bad time vomiting and maybe bleeding internally and getting ulcers. you should go to the er if you're able to in order to prevent kidney damage.
otherwise you're not gonna die immediately; you're most likely going to survive with painful kidney damage, or die because of painful kidney damage
 
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I am planning to use a gun because it's most certain. You need to lie down and rest for the full effects to take place
I see. Ive been laying down this whole time since I attempted. Nothing crazy yet. We'll see.

Also good luck on your attempt. I wish you well.
honestly, with nsaids, i think you're gonna have a really bad time vomiting and maybe bleeding internally and getting ulcers. you should go to the er if you're able to in order to prevent kidney damage.
otherwise you're not gonna die immediately; you're most likely going to survive with painful kidney damage, or die because of painful kidney damage
I dont drive so I would have to tell my ma—which Im scared as shit to because I dont want to cause a scene.

If I vomit or have any serious symptoms Ill just ask her to take me to the er without saying why until Im able to talk to a doctor or whatever privately (if I can). I just dont have the confidence to confess to her that I just attempted, even over text. Im scared. Thank you for your reply though.
 
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I see. Ive been laying down this whole time since I attempted. Nothing crazy yet. We'll see.

Also good luck on your attempt. I wish you well.

I dont drive so I would have to tell my ma—which Im scared as shit to because I dont want to cause a scene.

If I vomit or have any serious symptoms Ill just ask her to take me to the er without saying why until Im able to talk to a doctor or whatever privately (if I can). I just dont have the confidence to confess to her that I just attempted, even over text. Im scared. Thank you for your reply though.
would she be less mad if you say you tried to get high? Hurry up
 
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would she be less mad if you say you tried to get high? Hurry up
She smokes weed. I dont think getting high by nsaids is gonna convince her, lol.
 
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She smokes weed. I dont think getting high by nsaids is gonna convince her, lol.
Idk how old you are but the er shouldn't disclose anything to her. She won't find out that's what it is
 
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