fairykitty
that was it, game over
- Jan 5, 2025
- 9
My last post was in the recovery thread but now I'm fully ready to CTB
My boyfriend just threw the word "abusive" at me just because I self harm and our relationship can't come back from this. He's gone to work now and I'm actually ready to CTB.
My heart is shattered I never thought he'd throw that word at me despite me slaving day in and day out to keep him happy fed and entertained. God forbid I'm fuckimg suicidal. Who knew that was abusive. I just wanted a fucking hug before he left for work because my mom had just sent me a long ass paragraph telling me I'm lazy and useless and will never find a job
And he said her text "wasn't that bad"— despite it being one of the most disgusting things you could say to your own child— I used the word "abusive"
and then 2 minutes later he threw it at ME. Despite me just crying and begging for help and begging for HIM to help me.
So i'm ready to go. I am in so much pain, I am ready for it all to be over. We've been together for almost 2 years. I give him all of me all the time. He's the reason I'm failing school. I'm sorry I'm not perfect and can't be happy all the time. Everyone will be better off without me. Unfortunately I was not overreacting or lying about being suicidal, now they will all see that. Fuck you all. I've been sexually abused. Is that what you wanted to hear? I was sexually abused as a child. Now does it make fucking sense? I had to spell it all out, right?
Bye. I was the best fucking girlfriend you could've asked for
My boyfriend just threw the word "abusive" at me just because I self harm and our relationship can't come back from this. He's gone to work now and I'm actually ready to CTB.
My heart is shattered I never thought he'd throw that word at me despite me slaving day in and day out to keep him happy fed and entertained. God forbid I'm fuckimg suicidal. Who knew that was abusive. I just wanted a fucking hug before he left for work because my mom had just sent me a long ass paragraph telling me I'm lazy and useless and will never find a job
And he said her text "wasn't that bad"— despite it being one of the most disgusting things you could say to your own child— I used the word "abusive"
and then 2 minutes later he threw it at ME. Despite me just crying and begging for help and begging for HIM to help me.
So i'm ready to go. I am in so much pain, I am ready for it all to be over. We've been together for almost 2 years. I give him all of me all the time. He's the reason I'm failing school. I'm sorry I'm not perfect and can't be happy all the time. Everyone will be better off without me. Unfortunately I was not overreacting or lying about being suicidal, now they will all see that. Fuck you all. I've been sexually abused. Is that what you wanted to hear? I was sexually abused as a child. Now does it make fucking sense? I had to spell it all out, right?
Bye. I was the best fucking girlfriend you could've asked for
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