I’m not meant to be alive.

[violetdevil]

I've thought about suicide since I was about 13 years old. I tried to kill myself twice with Tylenol, once with antidepressants and cutting. Ended up in the hospital throwing up and had to get an IV. Bullied in school, ugly as fuck, severe body dysmorphia, never fits in, can't finish school or hold down a job, can't be a normal functioning adult and nobody wants to be friends with me. I should have never been born. I'm a failure. I just need to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

That really sounds so horrible what you've been through, existence certainly is too unnecessarily cruel. I also see myself as not being meant for existing in every way possible, I'm only meant to not-exist, I certainly wish I never existed at all.

 

[アホペンギン]

I feel the same way, I don't know why we are cursed with existence when our fate is to just despise every feature of ourselves and try ending it all frequently.

 

[tiredandconfused]

It's sad but true. I knew as a child live was not meant for me. I go through the motions but I think I gave up long ago. The social norm is to encourage people to keep going. Sometimes this makes it worse. More pressure when really I know I don't fit in. I feel your pain.