I decided to get away from the city because it's spring break from college. I went to my home town and got a hotel. It's great because it's nice and quiet. I'd totally live here if I could. I still can't sleep. It's almost 4am. I plan to walk around town to relive good memories and visit my mom and other family's graves. I may meet up with my cousin. It always feel strange coming here because mostly everyone that once knew me is gone. It's like a dream or a simulator of sorts. I wish I had a viable method to CTB after I am done with my outing. It would be great to return to the hotel and drift off forever.
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I also wish for a reliable way to just be gone, all I hope for is to never wake ever again. But anyway I wish you the best.
It is great to be away from everyone. It's nice and quiet besides the harassment from the room service this morning.
It sucks. It basically happened to me at a young age too. Once you lose the main connections in your life you are no longer grounded. And to me it has been impossible to make any newer real connections. Once you're disconnected you are basically already dead.
I'm trying. I'm going to do a bunch of psilocybin mushrooms tonight in an attempt to fix my brain. If I'm forced to stay on earth I need to use my brain to survive and do things. Otherwise no one is going to help me with anything. I'm hoping it may get me to think clearer and kill my depression for awhile. It did it before though I guess it's not a guarantee.Last edited:Similar threads
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