Im homeless and i want to die

[micahjava]

Are there any methods a jobless homeless tranny like myself who owns no car nor anything else could do it?

GOD -> I wanna jump off a bridge. I think thats my plan. I have linemans pliers for their oppressive fence. I have a right to die. A friend of mine once said they were inspired by a person who jumped off that bridge. I wanna be thought of as inspiring.

My friends all hate me and its so cold that im not able to go outside and see them. Im forced to depend on everyone cus being homeless makes me a parasite. I wanted to be a woman but instead i became a tape worm.

I miss being married. I miss being young. I miss believing that anything in the world would ever get better. I miss believing that i could overcome any obstacle. It was all lies upon lies.

Ive realized recently that love and friendship are myths. I am broken and since nobody actually cares about anyone ill never get the kind of deep connections i wanted.

I have so many dead friends and i am so mad at them all the time. I hope someone is mad at me. I really just want to be ----> i dont know what i want. I am in a lot of pain all the time and its not wrong for me to want it to stop.

 

[doomedbynarrative]

Hi there. I'm not trans but I am queer and a lot of my beloved friends are trans.

Firstly, I'm sorry we and the world have failed you. There is no LGB+ without our Trans brothers and sisters. It was Trans folks who threw the first brick at Stonewall. It was y'all who headed the protests and marches. We would have nothing without having had you all with us and no amount of history erasure done by our current world leaders will change that.

The world and society will call you a parasite but it doesn't make you one. Fuck Elon and his "parasite class" bullshit.

Our earliest ancestors of humanity learned how to care of the less fortunate and that's a proven fact. It is not your fault that society thinks it's too good to continue that. Society is made up bullshit that we are currently forced to live under pretending we ever had a real choice in it. More people are beginning to realize this.

You want the pain and the struggle to stop more than anything. I get it. I think that's what most people here really want. I can't promise you things will get better. I can promise you that they MIGHT get better. There are people out there working to fight this bullshit and change things. It's such slow going but they are doing their best. And that's all anyone can do at any given moment whether it is good enough or not.

I personally think you have a right to be here and you have a right to be loved and treated with dignity. Society may revile you but I will not. And I'm not alone in refusing to do that.

I cannot tell you what to DO but I can say that no matter what I wish you peace whatever that might look like for you.

 

[micahjava]

Hi there. I'm not trans but I am queer and a lot of my beloved friends are trans.

Firstly, I'm sorry we and the world have failed you. There is no LGB+ without our Trans brothers and sisters. It was Trans folks who threw the first brick at Stonewall. It was y'all who headed the protests and marches. We would have nothing without having had you all with us and no amount of history erasure done by our current world leaders will change that.

The world and society will call you a parasite but it doesn't make you one. Fuck Elon and his "parasite class" bullshit.

Our earliest ancestors of humanity learned how to care of the less fortunate and that's a proven fact. It is not your fault that society thinks it's too good to continue that. Society is made up bullshit that we are currently forced to live under pretending we ever had a real choice in it. More people are beginning to realize this.

You want the pain and the struggle to stop more than anything. I get it. I think that's what most people here really want. I can't promise you things will get better. I can promise you that they MIGHT get better. There are people out there working to fight this bullshit and change things. It's such slow going but they are doing their best. And that's all anyone can do at any given moment whether it is good enough or not.

I personally think you have a right to be here and you have a right to be loved and treated with dignity. Society may revile you but I will not. And I'm not alone in refusing to do that.

I cannot tell you what to DO but I can say that no matter what I wish you peace whatever that might look like for you.

Thanks. I feel like a hypocrite for wanting to die. Being mad at dead friends causes so much pain but I dont really care, which weirds me out.

I made this proanti poem about my dead friend.

Continuous work for different groups my friends run keeps me alive in summer time. Winter is just so difficult cus i cant be active.

Ur messege was weirdly helpful to me and i dont know why. Probably the parasite part. Thanks sincerely.

 

[Exhausted546]

Are there any methods a jobless homeless tranny like myself who owns no car nor anything else could do it?

GOD -> I wanna jump off a bridge. I think thats my plan. I have linemans pliers for their oppressive fence. I have a right to die. A friend of mine once said they were inspired by a person who jumped off that bridge. I wanna be thought of as inspiring.

My friends all hate me and its so cold that im not able to go outside and see them. Im forced to depend on everyone cus being homeless makes me a parasite. I wanted to be a woman but instead i became a tape worm.

I miss being married. I miss being young. I miss believing that anything in the world would ever get better. I miss believing that i could overcome any obstacle. It was all lies upon lies.

Ive realized recently that love and friendship are myths. I am broken and since nobody actually cares about anyone ill never get the kind of deep connections i wanted.

I have so many dead friends and i am so mad at them all the time. I hope someone is mad at me. I really just want to be ----> i dont know what i want. I am in a lot of pain all the time and its not wrong for me to want it to stop.

OP, out of curiosity would you take a job at McDonald's if it least allowed you to put a roof over your head?

 

[micahjava]

OP, out of curiosity would you take a job at McDonald's if it least allowed you to put a roof over your head?

I would work part time if it was warm enough to walk there. I apply to places sometimes. Nobody wants to hire me. I live in abandoned buildings most of the time so despite being homeless i have a roof usually.

I cant handle the stress of bills. Im not lazy. I used to work at a coal mine actually. I just literally am not mentally capable of all that stress anymore. Ive been homeless for a year and as miserable as I am, I am happier this way.

I didnt so much choose homelessness as i gave up on living, then i lacked the conviction to kill myself and didnt wanna go back to being in my failed marriage. I planned to kill myself that day then didnt and that really was more than a year ago. Wow a lot has changed lol.

 

[Exhausted546]

I would work part time if it was warm enough to walk there. I apply to places sometimes. Nobody wants to hire me. I live in abandoned buildings most of the time so despite being homeless i have a roof usually.

I cant handle the stress of bills. Im not lazy. I used to work at a coal mine actually. I just literally am not mentally capable of all that stress anymore. Ive been homeless for a year and as miserable as I am, I am happier this way.

I didnt so much choose homelessness as i gave up on living, then i lacked the conviction to kill myself and didnt wanna go back to being in my failed marriage. I planned to kill myself that day then didnt and that really was more than a year ago. Wow a lot has changed lol.

No don't worry I'm not judging you. I'm facing homelessness but I'm being a snobbish brat by refusing to entertain minimum wage jobs or fast food work. I already gave up on living so I'm planning to ctb before it become homeless.

I'm sorry you're going through all this, is there no social ressources on your country to help you?

 

[micahjava]

No don't worry I'm not judging you. I'm facing homelessness but I'm being a snobbish brat by refusing to entertain minimum wage jobs or fast food work. I already gave up on living so I'm planning to ctb before it become homeless.

I'm sorry you're going through all this, is there no social ressources on your country to help you?

The anarchists have legitimatley been more useful than the pretend "resources" my state offers. This is both impressive and sad.

My advice for being homeless is to get good at shoplifting & find people who will treat u like a human being. Food wont be an issue for you. You will be hungrier than u have been before but u wont starve. So everything else is more important. Get a bike as soon as possible.

YOur new currency is friendships, not money. That will be much more useful to you. Try to make friends with people who give u free shit. Wet wipes can be used to wipe off urself every day if showering isnt an option.

To shave fill a bowl with water, and shake the razor around to clean it. U can shave ur whole body like this once u r used 2 it.

PEople in the punk subculture will be very friendly to u if u try to be their friend.

 

[iwanttodie019]

how

Are there any methods a jobless homeless tranny like myself who owns no car nor anything else could do it?

GOD -> I wanna jump off a bridge. I think thats my plan. I have linemans pliers for their oppressive fence. I have a right to die. A friend of mine once said they were inspired by a person who jumped off that bridge. I wanna be thought of as inspiring.

My friends all hate me and its so cold that im not able to go outside and see them. Im forced to depend on everyone cus being homeless makes me a parasite. I wanted to be a woman but instead i became a tape worm.

I miss being married. I miss being young. I miss believing that anything in the world would ever get better. I miss believing that i could overcome any obstacle. It was all lies upon lies.

Ive realized recently that love and friendship are myths. I am broken and since nobody actually cares about anyone ill never get the kind of deep connections i wanted.

I have so many dead friends and i am so mad at them all the time. I hope someone is mad at me. I really just want to be ----> i dont know what i want. I am in a lot of pain all the time and its not wrong for me to want it to stop.

which country?

 

[micahjava]

how

which country?

United States