I’m going to try to live

[eaturdirt]

Even though it's really hard, I want to try to keep living for my parents, little sister and other family. There's a great opportunity for me as well where I can get therapy for a year surrounded by people my age. (but maybe after my first impression of the place I don't want to go anymore, then I'll just get back to my plan of ctb around mid June) But I honestly hope the therapy is a good fit for me and that I meet some people there who go through similar things. I want to learn as well, I want to learn how to deal with these feelings. I'm travelling to Canada and Paris in the next upcoming weeks and I'm excited to see new parts of the world. Even though I've lost all of my energy for life, I'm going to try to climb up again. It's even hard for me now to put on clothes and to shower, so I'll be working on that first. I won't let the way my narcisstic ex treated me hold me down any longer, he won't have that control over me anymore.

 

[Jiyuurakka]

I'll be rooting for you, sending my best wishes. Take it one step at a time and take care of yourself.

 

[Tommysway]

Wish you all the best. I really hope the therapy exceeds your low expectations...and like you say yourself, perhaps you will meet people there who share your experience. Have fun in Canada and Paris, hope you can enjoy yourself. Take care

 

[OCDsufferer]

Sending you love and well wishes, I hope therapy goes well and you end up realizing you aren't so alone. And one step at a time, take care of yourself but don't overexert yourself. And do keep in mind recovery isn't linear, don't give up so soon. Do have fun in Canada and Paris, I personally loved Paris when I went there.

 

[eaturdirt]

I'll be rooting for you, sending my best wishes. Take it one step at a time and take care of yourself.

Thank you so much <3

Wish you all the best. I really hope the therapy exceeds your low expectations...and like you say yourself, perhaps you will meet people there who share your experience. Have fun in Canada and Paris, hope you can enjoy yourself. Take care

Thank you so much!! I have good feelings about this therapy :)

Sending you love and well wishes, I hope therapy goes well and you end up realizing you aren't so alone. And one step at a time, take care of yourself but don't overexert yourself. And do keep in mind recovery isn't linear, don't give up so soon. Do have fun in Canada and Paris, I personally loved Paris when I went there.

Thank you <3 I'll keep the advice in mind :) I see your reactions on other posts as well and you always give solid advice.

Do you maybe know any places in Paris I'd have to visit?

 

[terra.nuvo]

I'm glad you're making the decision to keep going on. I know it's a hard one to make especially when you're in the middle of the down feeling. I'm rooting for you and sending love your way.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

I take it you're a young person. It's a good idea to try to make it work at your age. Good luck.

 

[eatantz]

Wishing you the best, I hope it all works out for you!!