moon_
New Member
- May 18, 2026
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It's weird for me, because I lie a lot to people about how I feel, and I'm afraid I won't be honest with my therapist. I just hate the feeling of being pitied. I had cancer that left me disabled, so I had my share of pity, and don't want any more.
I'm also suspecting I may be bipolar. One week I want to die, and actively planning it (that's why I'm here), then the next I'm happy beyond limit. Or not even happy, just forgetting al my negative emotions. It's hard to describe. But I'm also afraid that if I go to a therapist or a psychiatrist with it they will just think "Good, another person who self diagnozed from tiktok".
I'm also suspecting I may be bipolar. One week I want to die, and actively planning it (that's why I'm here), then the next I'm happy beyond limit. Or not even happy, just forgetting al my negative emotions. It's hard to describe. But I'm also afraid that if I go to a therapist or a psychiatrist with it they will just think "Good, another person who self diagnozed from tiktok".
