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I just want to go to sleep and end it. I'm ready to accept an autopsy and just die in my room. I'm in the process of getting the equipment to die in my sleep but I had a mental panic attack today and just wanted to die. Anything you can recommend to ease anxiety before ctb
Comfort foods, music, or thc/cbd off the top of my head but I also agree with the others. I hope you can feel better soon to follow through with your decision either way.
Thank you but I don't think that will be sufficient to help when driving. If I just do it in my room, I would be a lot more relaxed but I'm trying to pass far away to not be found for a while. I've calmed down now from my anxiety attack. It's most triggered from the pain of my self harm cut.
I can't take public transport when carrying a large nitrogen tank. Also my ctb location is remote, no public transport there.
I live in constant anxiety and fear 24/7. Worrying about my self harm injuries, money etc.
No, I'm going try get some or something similar from my GP. I'll be visiting my hospital doctor soon, so I'll try and request an anxiety medication and state I get severe cold panic attacks when I have mental health breakdown due to my self harm. I'm in the process of setting up my sleep nitrogen ctb method where I can go to sleep in an exit bag breathing air from one tank followed by the nitrogen tank opening via a rope connected to weights on a timer pad lock after a certain time period when the air runs out. When I got the sensation that I was going to die today, I got a panic attack and made this post. Dying isn't easy and it's why I don't want to continue breathing nitrogen while conscious until I pass out as it's already difficult.
