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drownitoutwithmusic

drownitoutwithmusic

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Jul 25, 2022
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Hey guys!!

So I've tried SN before - never wanna try it again. I can't deal with every feeling that again & I never went unconscious.

I don't wanna go out & get a gun. I don't wanna try and hang myself. I wanna feel peace. I thought that's what I would get with SN but I was mistaken. I'm just feeling so helpless.

I'd be so content with just leaving right now & not feeling a thing and not having to live my day-to-day mundane life anymore. I don't have anything in me that wants to make it better. I just feel like I'm not supposed to be here.

I just want to be able to leave peacefully. Why isn't there a method for that??
 
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BlackWednesday

BlackWednesday

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Oct 18, 2022
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Something I struggle with also. Wish I knew a heroin dealer
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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If only there was a way to just choose to never wake again without having to do any method research then that would be ideal, but unfortunately that is not the reality. I believe that only those who are very lucky die a peaceful death.
From what I've read SN doesn't sound that awful, I mean many people have succeeded with it, and nothing is as painful as the pain that this life brings for so many people. But it would certainly be for the best to never have to worry about the chance of methods failing and just instantly achieve true freedom from this world. I've never wanted to be here at all and could never do, I've also felt as though I'm not meant to be in this world. I envy those who have left.
 
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outrider567

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Apr 5, 2022
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Hey guys!!

So I've tried SN before - never wanna try it again. I can't deal with every feeling that again & I never went unconscious.

I don't wanna go out & get a gun. I don't wanna try and hang myself. I wanna feel peace. I thought that's what I would get with SN but I was mistaken. I'm just feeling so helpless.

I'd be so content with just leaving right now & not feeling a thing and not having to live my day-to-day mundane life anymore. I don't have anything in me that wants to make it better. I just feel like I'm not supposed to be here.

I just want to be able to leave peacefully. Why isn't there a method for that??
Nitrogen
Hey guys!!

So I've tried SN before - never wanna try it again. I can't deal with every feeling that again & I never went unconscious.

I don't wanna go out & get a gun. I don't wanna try and hang myself. I wanna feel peace. I thought that's what I would get with SN but I was mistaken. I'm just feeling so helpless.

I'd be so content with just leaving right now & not feeling a thing and not having to live my day-to-day mundane life anymore. I don't have anything in me that wants to make it better. I just feel like I'm not supposed to be here.

I just want to be able to leave peacefully. Why isn't there a method for that??
Nitrogen
 
gomenasai

gomenasai

Student
Sep 30, 2022
168
Did you take the sufficient amount of SN?
 
drownitoutwithmusic

drownitoutwithmusic

Member
Jul 25, 2022
31
If only there was a way to just choose to never wake again without having to do any method research then that would be ideal, but unfortunately that is not the reality. I believe that only those who are very lucky die a peaceful death.
From what I've read SN doesn't sound that awful, I mean many people have succeeded with it, and nothing is as painful as the pain that this life brings for so many people. But it would certainly be for the best to never have to worry about the chance of methods failing and just instantly achieve true freedom from this world. I've never wanted to be here at all and could never do, I've also felt as though I'm not meant to be in this world. I envy those who have left.
I feel the same way. Sometimes I wonder why I haven't gotten in some kind of car accident or had something happen to me yet. I wanna try again - just can't try SN. It was uncomfortable and I have flashbacks from it. :((
Nitrogen

Nitrogen
I've thought about it but I can't find a dumbed down version of the gas method - it's so confusing. I would have to really study it over & over again I feel like to understand - I've never used gas before.
Did you take the sufficient amount of SN?
Yeah. I almost died - but I was never unconscious and I didn't have proper meds to take with it.
 

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