Venting I'm afraid

[Michelstaedter]

I'm afraid of failing, I'm afraid of being disabled, I'm afraid of not making it.
I would like to find a perfect method, I would just like to turn off a switch or unplug a device.
Traditional methods are difficult, you have a lot of courage to take the step, however I am also afraid of pain.
Life hurts a lot.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand and I also find it painful to exist, I wish there's the option to simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, it's just so horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong and just lead to way more suffering as a result, I just see so much cruelty in how that can happen, all I personally hope for is to never exist ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.