Im afraid

[falling_snow]

Im afraid of everything, of tomorrow, of waking up, of just living. Every moment i feel like rotting, death that doesnt relieve, but just stays there, devouring every part of me. It hurts so much that i want it to end. I feel like every moment i live i cannot rest, i cannot close my eyes and leave. Its been years since ive truly rested.

I want to CTB but i feel afraid, incapable. Idk if i can continue like this. I dont feel like me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's so dreadful feeling trapped in this existence that just causes suffering. But anyway I wish you the best, I find it cruel how there isn't the option to just choose to fall into an dreamless and eternal sleep.

 

[Mirrory Me]

What are you afraid of? Maybe you feel like you are really dying while you go through this. Own death does not necessarily bring us comfort, it's pretty dark and ugly process.