Ignore me, just a venting thread

[hourlyrabbit]

Thank you for reading, I do genuinely appreciate all of your eyes on the things I write, you're some of the only people I can share things with anymore
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I made a few posts talking about my life a few months ago and thought it had finally gotten better. Saw a doctor and got some antidepressants that worked for a good while, they dont seem to be helping any more.
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I recently got some bad news from my doctor when seeing them about beginning transitioning, turns out I am diabetic, just a massive hit to my self. I know it isn't my fault but I feel like if I tell anybody their view of me will change, and I have to wait an additional period of months before i can even consider beginning a proper transition, my entire self is destroyed.
I can't even bring myself to share the news with my closest friends, it would just be so much easier for me to disappear
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I recently adopted a rabbit which I had wanted for years. I love him. he is my best friend, and it crushes me that i am not able to take care of him as much as he deserves, and he is currently the only thing keeping me around. I'm looking for a new home for him but i am afraid that somebody will find out and try to stop me and i am not ready to face that.
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So many repressed memories has resurfaced in the past few months and each one has been hitting harder than the last.
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My current plans are to find somebody I can spend time with for a month or two before I get to finally leave. I want to have a bit of peace before I am gone
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Thank you for reading, I love you

 

[ocklepold]

You sound like a lovely person. I wish I had a friend like you

 

[Bobbylobby]

God I'm so sorry, I can't imagine having to give away a pet especially one that's a friend. You sound like a good person, I hope you and your rabbit do well. If I could I'd let you stay at my apartment with me.

 

[FadingSunshine]

I'm really sorry, it sounds like life handed you a shit hand of cards. You don't deserve to be feeling this way.