If you were to ctb tomorrow, what would the fallout be?

[woxihuanni]

I don't understand when people say 'x would be devastated'. As in, they wouldn't go to work or school, be a blubbering mess for months? With me, except for my failed parents, everybody would go on exactly as before. Nobody's routine would be disrupted.

 

[mattwitt]

My parents already lost one child from murder so I think and actually hope they both would be pretty devastated since I did try and open up to them. My dad didn't believe me and my mom told me "Just don't do it in the house" My older brother wouldn't care. The first thing he would do would see if there is anything of mine that he wants so he can take it a sell it. My younger brother would just call me selfish and probably not even go to my funeral (If there even is one. My niece and her kids would probably pretty devastated as well. All of my relatives that I never see would probably be more concerned about how my mom is taking it. And I do have 1 online friend who would take it the worse. She would probably miss some days at work because of it.

 

[ShadowChild]

Like among people you know.
I wish I had no one. I would ctb right now in that case. I'm supposed to be blessed because my parents care. I wish they didn't. Even though I'm grown and don't live with them it's difficult. If my mom died, I think I could do it. She's a health nut though and despite being elderly will probably live another 20 years. I hate this situation!

I don't want to think about it, I know several people would be crushed some more so than others and one of them would probably try to follow me

 

[Nem]

Family would be a bit devastated but they know I've been near death for awhile. A close friend would be devastated I would think, that makes it tough but suicide is my only hope
Peace/hugs

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

My kids and my mother.... The kids need me and my mother she would be broken to a whole new degree....

 

[Freedom Believer]

My uncle and grandparents will be devastated. My Dad will either join them or destroy everything in his house in anger. I don't know. Everyone in town might feel bad for me for a while but then quickly move on.

 

[Suiaimz]

I don't think my fallout would be too crazy. My parents would be sad for awhile. Friends would probably say "I should've known" just for the sake of saying so but honestly, I couldn't blame them. I've been telling them I'm gonna kill myself for over 4years now and at this point my words are pretty much meaningless.

 

[Élégie]

I'm very isolated; I don't have a relationship with extended family members and I lost all my "friends" years ago. Besides my parents, nobody would care.

 

[mesohappy]

Like among people you know.
I wish I had no one. I would ctb right now in that case. I'm supposed to be blessed because my parents care. I wish they didn't. Even though I'm grown and don't live with them it's difficult. If my mom died, I think I could do it. She's a health nut though and despite being elderly will probably live another 20 years. I hate this situation!

Ive already been thinking it through,and I really think no one would even notice with me,until the neighbors started noticing the smell and neglected yard.My dog would notice,of course and this is the hardest part for me.I love her and know that I need to give her to someone so she doesn't have to suffer because of my choice.Shes been my only friend for the last couple years.

 

[Racee]

So far there are only upsides to the "fallout" and would actually would help solve a lot of situations going on and benefit people around me. Or course people are going to be sad "mos
t are around death " but mine would be less of a tragedy I suppose...unless I lived in a Shakespeare play

 

[MarkForres]

My mom would be destroyed, very likely to follow suit when she would find out. She's already lost a child before, so pretty understandable. Sometimes I wish more people would care so I would be put off from doing it, but then it would just feel more like a hassle than an actual deterrent.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

Mommy would be sad. Maybe she'll eventually kill herself too, but impulsively. I don't know.

If my youtuber friend gets to know, he might make a video on men's mental health and mention me here. My other friend watches his videos, so she'd now and be more sad sometimes, but it wouldn't affect any of them in a significant way.

My ex-colleague who we'd still chat would be like "wow, he wasn't joking?!". It might trigger him to think that stuff is quite hopeless, as I've mentioned on several occasions. My other ex-colleague who now moved away would probably make a sad face for a few minutes and drink something alcoholic in memory. I don't expect them to figure out anytime soon after I pass away.

My current boss would be disappointed that I suddenly vanished with no words. And in open-source community people would probably ponder on what's happened and why I stopped respond. I don't expect them to get the news, though I might be wrong here.

 

[Aonewayticketplease]

My Mum, one of my sisters and a handful of friends would be hit hard. Don't think that anyone else would give 2 hoots.

 

[Jean4]

The board would be thrown into a panic. Nobody else would notice, since there is nobody.

My cats wouldn't be happy because they would be put to sleep. They are unadoptsble.

 

[mesohappy]

The board would be thrown into a panic. Nobody else would notice, since there is nobody.

My cats wouldn't be happy because they would be put to sleep. They are unadoptsble.

I feel you on the pets..Im scared of leaving my dog.Shes the only thing that is keeping me going.If I am to go,I need to find a home for her first..Cant just leave her in the yard to starve/die of thirst.Problem is she is old at this point and I doubt anyone cares to adopt an old mixed breed dog,no matter how well mannered she is.Besides on the day I would hand her off to someone else,I know thats it..It would break both our hearts and I see myself not being able to live with it.

 

[Jean4]

I feel you on the pets..Im scared of leaving my dog.Shes the only thing that is keeping me going.If I am to go,I need to find a home for her first..Cant just leave her in the yard to starve/die of thirst.Problem is she is old at this point and I doubt anyone cares to adopt an old mixed breed dog,no matter how well mannered she is.Besides on the day I would hand her off to someone else,I know thats it..It would break both our hearts and I see myself not being able to live with it.

It's why I am here. My cats trust me. I can't break that trust. People have been doing that to me my entire life.

 

[SugarbushMtn]

Minimal in my case. Starting to distance myself from almost everyone.

 

[ShadowChild]

I feel you on the pets..Im scared of leaving my dog.Shes the only thing that is keeping me going.If I am to go,I need to find a home for her first..Cant just leave her in the yard to starve/die of thirst.Problem is she is old at this point and I doubt anyone cares to adopt an old mixed breed dog,no matter how well mannered she is.Besides on the day I would hand her off to someone else,I know thats it..It would break both our hearts and I see myself not being able to live with it.

I also feel you on this. My cat has interrupted me on a few attempts now..

 

[elizabeth.luck]

My parents wouldn't care but I'm not sure what would happen to my horse. That's what keeps me around.

 

[Nnana]

I feel exactly the same. Sometimes I wish my mother was dead or was an horrible person, so Id have a very good reason to ctb and I'd not feel guilty. If I'm to wait my mother die, I will probably have to wait 30 years.

 

[escapefromabuse]

My mom and kids would be devastated. I've got a 17 girl and 8 boy plus the two others that were just ripped away from me. My 17 yo is very much a daddy's girl. All she has to do is ask and she gets what she wants. She's a great kid, too. Doing well in school and everything. My 8 yo is my little boy. He loves rough housing and playing sports with me.

 

[Merith]

Mother: devastated. She lost an extreme amount of people thus far, mostly family, in under two years... but none were a child.

"Friends": I'm not in a deep relationship with any, most are just coworkers or people I went to school with that I text every once in a while. They'd be confused, but would hopefully move on.

Siblings: who knows?

But then there's people all over the city who know who I am and wishes the best for me... which scares me the most. I'm going to do it when I won't be concerned about my parent. Though I have everything I need now, it's tempting...

 

[MsMaudlin]

My family would be devastated. It would leave so much stuff to sort in the house, need to close my online shop and refund unfulfilled orders, all sorts x

 

[IvanK]

My sister would probably blame herself for not doing enough. But if I were to CTB tomorrow I would write a detailed letter explaining how it would not be her fault. She has her own family, a loving husband and a life to look forward to. I am sure she would be fine in a few months, may be a year. My uncle and aunt talk to me often. So they would be sad for a while. But they will move on.
For the initial few days there would be intense pain at the loss and also because of the inconveniences caused due to police inquiry and funeral arrangements that will have to be sorted out. Unfortunately, that would be unavoidable. If I could just disappear into thin air, I would have chosen that option.
No parents. No close friends. Nobody at work will be affected. My pet will be affected the most. There would be nobody to feed him. He is old. Nobody would take him. My domestic help and cook would lose her job. But if CTB, I would leave her 3 months of salary which would take care of her expenses until she finds a new job.

 

[BlueWidow]

Well, when my husband died, his family was around for about 2 1/2 weeks. . . . And that's only because we had some complications with the memorial service. After that, as far as I know, they all left me to deal with everything else alone and they all went back to their lives and picked up where they left off as if nothing happened. And they care way less for me than they did for him, so I don't really see much effect.
My husband's grandkids may get some money as any money left after my final expenses are all paid goes to them.
My sister-in-law will probably be upset, but she has a family of her own so she'll eventually get over it. I think they'll all get over it and, in the end, everyone will be better off. Particularly me because I'll finally be free of the prison that is my mind & body and back where I want to be which is next to my husband.

 

[goomsoom]

Just my mother, my father will be too but he will get over it. My mother would be devasted as I don't have any brother or sister.

 

[Maravillosa]

My youngest brother would be sooo angry at me: why couldn't I go on living and deal with the stress as he does? My other brother would probably think "'oh, my crazy sister finally did it". My mother would be devastated: she would almost certainly have to move to a nursing home if I ctb, since there is no other way she could have her diaper changed etc. (I am remaining alive 50% for her sake, 45% because I want to complete and successfully publish my novel, and 5% because I am just a wee bit afraid of damning myself to Hell.) People at church would be shocked. Our three cats would miss me, I think, at least for a while: two of them are less than a year old and the third is a rather aloof character.

 

[truthseeker]

My only child, an adult daughter, will be devastated. She has many struggles of her own (health and financial) and I give what financial support I can monthly or when emergencies arise. I have a small amount set aside that I will send her just before I leave. Unfortunately, my income is very low but I do the best that I am able to.

My two friends will be surprised, one will have more sorrow and understanding than the other.
Many people in my neighborhood know of me even if we never spoke, there will be some rumor-mill gossip. I couldn't care less.
Other than the management company having to empty my apartment, that's about it.

 

[Carina]

Ahh, fallout from impromptu ctb... ironically same as if it was planned.

Mother, friends (briefly), and that's it. My one cat would be more broken up than them over a longer period. Mom might have issues, but she'd be able to cope I'd think.

Probably a lot of woodwork people crawling out claiming like "oh this was so sad!" and being all sad. Meanwhile I'd like to know where they've been because they're definitely not in my life now.