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JoeFailure

Wizard
Apr 29, 2019
634
I would not be suicidal at all if I had a lot of money.

I have hobbies and lots of interests.

But more than that I've always wanted a job that can help people. It would allow me to go back to school and/or fulfill a dream I always had of opening up a coffee shop where people with autism/disabled people could be the baristas. There are some of those that already exist, but I would've loved to have done it.

I also want to do some prison reform stuff.

I would also want to help save as many dogs as I possibly could. Maybe open up new programs.

But I'm an idiot and didn't pursue that kind of stuff when I was younger and I'm just kind of dumb.

There are so many doors that could open if I had money.
I think the financial issue is a huge mental trap, actually. The lack of it leads you to want to kill yourself, and an excess of it distances you further and further from real connections with people and it creates a great feeling of emptiness after a while (at least that's what I hear a lot from people who have a lot of money). People tend to believe that money is the solution to everything, and while it can certainly help A LOT, it's still far from being the solution to everything. Our minds often sabotage us; we'll always find something else to feel bad about

I think that emptiness with money can come if you're not doing something with it that's a passion. Like if I had a lot of money, there's so many things I would want to do to help dogs and disabled people and stuff that it wouldn't feel empty. I think it's empty if you have all the material things you want and don't have another use for it.
 
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless, Broken Doll
Apr 20, 2023
126
yes. i would still be alone and chronically ill. the only real benefit is i would no longer be financially dependent, which is one of the reasons i want to die. but it doesn't change nearly enough or make my life worth living in any way.
 
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Soumatou

Soumatou

Why Do Birds Fly?
Apr 28, 2026
44
yes, even if i was rich my coi would still be full of rot.
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

last chance for cake! šŸ°ā˜•ļø he/him
Apr 21, 2025
1,588
money would unironically save me lol. i know other people's situations are different. but for me, if i was rich, i would have much, much more i could do with my life and i feel a little resentful towards people that are more well off as a result, because they don't even realize the inherent privilege they have by not worrying about money. even killing yourself is easier if you're rich dude. even though i have a lot of issues, i would kill someone for a chance to have a million dollars or more.
 
DTA

DTA

Desperado
May 3, 2025
103
I would not be suicidal at all if I had a lot of money.

I have hobbies and lots of interests.

But more than that I've always wanted a job that can help people. It would allow me to go back to school and/or fulfill a dream I always had of opening up a coffee shop where people with autism/disabled people could be the baristas. There are some of those that already exist, but I would've loved to have done it.

I also want to do some prison reform stuff.

I would also want to help save as many dogs as I possibly could. Maybe open up new programs.

But I'm an idiot and didn't pursue that kind of stuff when I was younger and I'm just kind of dumb.

There are so many doors that could open if I had money.


I think that emptiness with money can come if you're not doing something with it that's a passion. Like if I had a lot of money, there's so many things I would want to do to help dogs and disabled people and stuff that it wouldn't feel empty. I think it's empty if you have all the material things you want and don't have another use for it.

I would not be suicidal at all if I had a lot of money.

I have hobbies and lots of interests.

But more than that I've always wanted a job that can help people. It would allow me to go back to school and/or fulfill a dream I always had of opening up a coffee shop where people with autism/disabled people could be the baristas. There are some of those that already exist, but I would've loved to have done it.

I also want to do some prison reform stuff.

I would also want to help save as many dogs as I possibly could. Maybe open up new programs.

But I'm an idiot and didn't pursue that kind of stuff when I was younger and I'm just kind of dumb.

There are so many doors that could open if I had money.


I think that emptiness with money can come if you're not doing something with it that's a passion. Like if I had a lot of money, there's so many things I would want to do to help dogs and disabled people and stuff that it wouldn't feel empty. I think it's empty if you have all the material things you want and don't have another use for it.
I've been a rich man and a poor man. Had so little money that I had to search the streets for coins to buy a packet of ramen for dinner and so wealthy that I had more money than I knew what to do with.
When I was poor I had lots of friends who made life fun. I had to move away for a good job. Then I had all the money I wanted but no friends. Personally I was happier poor. It was the friends that made life enjoyable. Money is just a tool.
I commend you for wanting to help prisoners. There's a lot of good people there who made one bad decision. They're treated like garbage with little way to redeem themselves.
 
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Leidensgenosse

Member
May 24, 2026
16
Yes. More importantly I'd probably be able to actually secure peaceful end of life drugs or afford a trip to Switzerland, so it'd realistically only expedite things.
 
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DarkFriend.

DarkFriend.

Neverending Suffering
May 1, 2022
89
The money will not change the suicidality. All that having money will mean is that you will be depressed with money.
 
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peacebenow

peacebenow

Too much has happened.
Apr 26, 2026
437
Money would allow me to get the medical care I need and to live in a safe environment.
 
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iwkmsssb

iwkmsssb

what is it that i am?
Jun 8, 2026
93
like what other people are saying, it'll delay but it wouldn't save me. there's something fundamentally wrong and i'm tired
 
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mistake22

mistake22

Member
Feb 28, 2023
67
I think with money I could reach out for help a lot easier.
a big chunk of depression, stress, and anxiety is caused by financial problems. If we all had financial freedom, we would get better healthcare and better living standards
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Anhedonic Paragon
Nov 26, 2025
970
I am reasonably well off and I'm still depressed.No joy whatsoever.There's something fundamentally wrong with me.

But I'm aware that things will be much worse without money.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
7,013
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

Destined to die
Nov 1, 2025
297
Money would help get me out of the situation I am currently trapped in, but my suicidal thoughts will probably still remain.
 
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Leonard_Bangley39

Leonard_Bangley39

I am a rock. I am an island
Nov 6, 2025
345
hell no, just about all my problems would be solved if i was rich. id buy a decent house on a nice plot of land and just live off my savings for the rest of my life. the only problems i can't see me being rich immediately fixing would be my social problems, like loneliness. but honestly, they would still be way easier to fix if i didn't have to worry about anything else anymore.
 
yukisopathetic

yukisopathetic

Member
Jun 12, 2026
6
honestly i'd have fun with it for a couple of years but i'd definitely still be suicidal
 
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54321song

54321song

Here we go again
Oct 31, 2024
10
Probably not. I would say all my problems come from having to work to be alive in this capitalistic society. If I had money I could get help much easier, get my physical and mental health taken better care of, and focus my time and energy on enjoyable things.
 
Scaredycat

Scaredycat

Member
Jun 8, 2026
20
My pressure mostly comes from being a burden... so maybe i will give my life another chance?
 
RottenSoul

RottenSoul

Disociating through life
Dec 20, 2021
17
I would still be suicidal for sure. Money can't cure my mental illness or my self-image. Cognitive distortions will always be there and unless they disappear i will still be suicidal. I have been trying actually applying cbt lately and writing down my thoughts instead of going to my therapist and rediscovering my whole condition all the time, hope it works.
 
ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Member
May 5, 2026
77
At this point yes. When nearly every last one of your loved ones got murdered, no amount of money in the world can bring them back.

If I'd been really wealthy BEFORE this happened, I might have owned some estate with a little lake and have had them all rescued and brought there (they're nutrias, not humans). Because of idiotic BS laws it might still have been difficult anyway though.
 
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Nikkra

Member
Sep 25, 2024
32
it might not cure my depression but it would make surviving much easier so yeah it would probably remove my suicidality as i think my suicidal feelings may be a rational response to put an end to the slow and painful decline caused by my reluctance to keep grinding. If i had the safety net of money there would be no slow and painful decline and i could just exist as a baseline
 
SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Broken Artist Ā« ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ Ā»
Nov 13, 2023
589
If I was rich I wouldn't have to work, I wouldn't be trapped in my abusive family, I would have have to see my loved one slowly die. I wouldn't have been in much situations. Because coloured paper is the rule of this world.

While it cannot solve everything, nor can it give you a reason to live if you don't have anything, it can surely solve materials problems involving debt, homelessness, lack of access to therapy or medicines due to financial reasons, grant you access to education and so much more. All things that can effectively improve the lives of many people, especially those poor or so indebted to see no other way out.

Undoubtedly there's a small % of people in the world that own the biggest % of wealth, and a ton of people who cannot even afford basics. I'm sure that money could change the lives of many people, but I also recognise that it cannot fix everything.

In my personal case, for the reasons listed above, I could likely put off my death for various years if nothing went wrong. But alas, one doesn't become rich by simply asking, praying or dreaming.

I just wish I had the financial means to provide myself and those who I deeply care about a better opportunity to live.
 
memento-mori

memento-mori

😓
Jul 1, 2025
394
i wouldn't want to be a king or billionaire because having that much money would prevent me from having a normal life
there are some things I wish I had in life that aren't tied to money
money can't solve all problems
 
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Merocero

Merocero

Tired.
Jul 29, 2025
62
I think i would still be depressed but it would be more manageable as i can... well buy myself happiness infinitely,, though I'd still have suicidal crashouts, life would be a bit better if i was rich
 

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