Jen Erik
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- Oct 12, 2018
- 637
A terrible crisis that further eroded my already tenuous sense of stability.
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sif
You deserve love
- Dec 28, 2018
- 373
Agreed good post, you said good and bad so I would've missed out on the handful of amazing people I've met and the music I've heard, but on the other hand would've missed every single miserable feeling and moment. Every year is similar so considering the differences of if I did it sooner or later aren't very important. When I'm dead I'm dead and I won't even be thinking about how I'm no longer suffering.
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Dead Meat
DOOMED
- Oct 10, 2018
- 18,394
More pain,suffering and sorrow.
Autumn Winter
Member
- Oct 28, 2018
- 29
Fcancer
Student
- Sep 24, 2018
- 185
I would have missed out on getting cancer a 2nd time, my partner leaving me, losing my job, losing my house, advancements in my depression, anxiety, and ptsd to the point of no return.
Damn this year was amazing. Can I do it again please, I didn't quite have enough fun the first time.
Taylor
Thankful
- Dec 23, 2018
- 476
Sitting in my room avoiding all social contact due to my social fears/issues, while suffering in immense physical pain for another year. Yayy haha. Please kill me.
خوف
Fallen Angel
- Jan 7, 2019
- 17
The only wonderful thing that has happened this past year was that I met the only and the most beautiful person who's pure inside and out.
I wouldn't say that he's like me but he is me but in a male version. I feel like our souls are the same, that they are twins.
But he's gone and after a long while, I ended up letting go...
Everything else that has happened was awful, constant suffering and misery. My meeting with him was the only lovely thing that has happened. I can't say that I wish I died a year ago as I'm still not sure.
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
Pain and a crazy unexpected downward spiral
Good: the tiny upward spinal I had for like a month lol
Midnight
Beyond solace
- Jun 30, 2018
- 624
I'm baffled that you're still arround. You are one tough person. Obviously you are here for a reason but still...
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
Deafsn0w
I will buy you a dog if you like my posts
- Sep 4, 2018
- 2,488
I could've avoided hurting a now very special person in my life...I've screwed up big time.
not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
- 2,121
A bit of peace, a bit of laughter, a lot of anxiety and some sheer fucking horror.
Very afraid for the next few years what will happen if I don't ctb, eventually an abusive care home and total loss of independence if I wait too long. Trying to squeeze through a couple decent years then ctb before they imprison me.
daikon
trash golem
- Dec 26, 2018
- 142
Conflicted Cat
Experienced
- May 23, 2019
- 256
Just a few video games, that's all. Oh, and knowing that this place exists too.
Alchemist
Warlock
- Apr 3, 2019
- 709
Watching my dog die of cancer. I wish I had the same luck.
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,704
The Stones show in Warsaw - it was another great one. A reunion with a longlost friend. My cats finding new confidence because I was hospitalized for three weeks almost dying and they had to get used to other people. Almost dying of co2 retention (the dreams were fantastic!). Getting rehabilitated. Finding this fine forum. Buying a house.
It's been lively.Last edited:Losing my job.
So pretty much, not a damn thing.
Ko9
Student
- Jun 30, 2019
- 159
Good: A couple of songs by artists I love, a couple of videos and movies and a bunch of art I made and saw being made by artist I love.
Bad: My dad yelling at me that because of me he his existence became a lot more excruciating. And the status quo of my mental health which is almost crippling.
Kirkscoobz
Experienced
- Feb 8, 2019
- 219
Ko9
Student
- Jun 30, 2019
- 159
It is a bit more complex, I mean if an afterlife exists I will go to hell but my dad is also pretty fucked up. This is pretty offtopic but my dad was mentally and physically abused as a kid but some things defiantly passed onto my childhood. He had many anger attacks, beated me but that was like 3% of the time. He was a pretty good dad the rest of the time. On the other hand: my brother has never been a problem for my mom and dad. So it was easy to pass the blame of their problems onto me and I doubt they are wrong.
seekingoblivion
Arcanist
- Dec 11, 2018
- 454
Dreamcolleger
I surrender... I SURRENDER!
- Apr 26, 2019
- 219
Not that much.
6 months of mundane oblivious existing/coping.
6 months of horrible reopened memories of abuse, and realising the reality of what it's done to me.
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,201
The complete degeneration of my self into a pathetic excuse for a human being. Also RWBY Volume 6.
On balance, CTBing would have been better.
Feline Fine
Member
- Jul 5, 2019
- 22
Nothing good, it would have been the perfect time for me. All I would have missed is months of terror over what the DWP will do to me, and a year of watching my body ruin itself.
Pupuce
Nobody exists on purpose. Come ctb
- Apr 19, 2019
- 282
This forum, a break-up and a magnificent year of me researching methods to ctb. And a bunch of ultimately useless human interaction.
lostangel
Enlightened
- Mar 22, 2019
- 1,051
Good
A lot of new music from my favorite artists
Bad
Pain and suffering
crying often
lonliness
heart break
disappointments
feeling depressed
self harm
a LOT of bad memories*sigh* nothing good. A year ago I thought I wasn't good enough for my gf but I still thought she loved me. She realized I wasn't good enough and now she's gone. It would have been nice thinking I had found real love at least.
lol I just wrote a post about how i never cry and now I'm crying.
I've been sick leave the entire year. Spent Christmas in jail which only helped to destroy what little family I had left. I've become a fat pig too, just nothing to do and the meds I guess.
A whole year and it was worth nothing.
I helped my mom quite a bit, there's that I guessSimilar threads
