If you died a year ago, what would you have missed out on?

[Jen Erik]

A terrible crisis that further eroded my already tenuous sense of stability.

 

[sif]

Agreed good post, you said good and bad so I would've missed out on the handful of amazing people I've met and the music I've heard, but on the other hand would've missed every single miserable feeling and moment. Every year is similar so considering the differences of if I did it sooner or later aren't very important. When I'm dead I'm dead and I won't even be thinking about how I'm no longer suffering.

If I died naturally or something a year ago, I'd miss out on a lot of heartache and suffering.
I'd miss out on new friendships I've made through the pain, and maybe a few key mental insights about myself
I'd miss out on watching myself become my worst enemy

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[Dead Meat]

More pain,suffering and sorrow.

 

[Autumn Winter]

awesome people i met ar summer camp

 

[Fcancer]

I would have missed out on getting cancer a 2nd time, my partner leaving me, losing my job, losing my house, advancements in my depression, anxiety, and ptsd to the point of no return.

Damn this year was amazing. Can I do it again please, I didn't quite have enough fun the first time.

 

[Taylor]

Sitting in my room avoiding all social contact due to my social fears/issues, while suffering in immense physical pain for another year. Yayy haha. Please kill me.

 

[خوف]

The only wonderful thing that has happened this past year was that I met the only and the most beautiful person who's pure inside and out.

I wouldn't say that he's like me but he is me but in a male version. I feel like our souls are the same, that they are twins.

But he's gone and after a long while, I ended up letting go...

Everything else that has happened was awful, constant suffering and misery. My meeting with him was the only lovely thing that has happened. I can't say that I wish I died a year ago as I'm still not sure.

 

[Redt2go]

Pain and a crazy unexpected downward spiral

Good: the tiny upward spinal I had for like a month lol

 

[Midnight]

I would have missed out on getting cancer a 2nd time, my partner leaving me, losing my job, losing my house, advancements in my depression, anxiety, and ptsd to the point of no return.

Damn this year was amazing. Can I do it again please, I didn't quite have enough fun the first time.

I'm baffled that you're still arround. You are one tough person. Obviously you are here for a reason but still...

 

[Johnnythefox]

Your original post.

 

[Deafsn0w]

sanctionedsuicide.com

 

[vulturecyclop]

I could've avoided hurting a now very special person in my life...I've screwed up big time.

 

[not_a_robot]

A bit of peace, a bit of laughter, a lot of anxiety and some sheer fucking horror.
Very afraid for the next few years what will happen if I don't ctb, eventually an abusive care home and total loss of independence if I wait too long. Trying to squeeze through a couple decent years then ctb before they imprison me.

 

[daikon]

Cocaine and disappointing sex

 

[Conflicted Cat]

Just a few video games, that's all. Oh, and knowing that this place exists too.

 

[Alchemist]

Watching my dog die of cancer. I wish I had the same luck.

 

[Soul]

The Stones show in Warsaw - it was another great one. A reunion with a longlost friend. My cats finding new confidence because I was hospitalized for three weeks almost dying and they had to get used to other people. Almost dying of co2 retention (the dreams were fantastic!). Getting rehabilitated. Finding this fine forum. Buying a house.

It's been lively.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Losing my job.

So pretty much, not a damn thing.

 

[Ko9]

Good: A couple of songs by artists I love, a couple of videos and movies and a bunch of art I made and saw being made by artist I love.
Bad: My dad yelling at me that because of me he his existence became a lot more excruciating. And the status quo of my mental health which is almost crippling.

 

[Kirkscoobz]

Nothing, your dead.

 

[not_a_robot]

Good: A couple of songs by artists I love, a couple of videos and movies and a bunch of art I made and saw being made by artist I love.
Bad: My dad yelling at me that because of me he his existence became a lot more excruciating. And the status quo of my mental health which is almost crippling.

Parents who say kids fucked up their life: nobody told you to fuck without a condom and force a child to be born.
Own your mistakes.

 

[Ko9]

It is a bit more complex, I mean if an afterlife exists I will go to hell but my dad is also pretty fucked up. This is pretty offtopic but my dad was mentally and physically abused as a kid but some things defiantly passed onto my childhood. He had many anger attacks, beated me but that was like 3% of the time. He was a pretty good dad the rest of the time. On the other hand: my brother has never been a problem for my mom and dad. So it was easy to pass the blame of their problems onto me and I doubt they are wrong.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Would have missed more misery.

 

[Dreamcolleger]

Not that much.

6 months of mundane oblivious existing/coping.
6 months of horrible reopened memories of abuse, and realising the reality of what it's done to me.

 

[RM5998]

The complete degeneration of my self into a pathetic excuse for a human being. Also RWBY Volume 6.

On balance, CTBing would have been better.

 

[Feline Fine]

Nothing good, it would have been the perfect time for me. All I would have missed is months of terror over what the DWP will do to me, and a year of watching my body ruin itself.

 

[Pupuce]

This forum, a break-up and a magnificent year of me researching methods to ctb. And a bunch of ultimately useless human interaction.

 

[keara]

A lot of bullshit

 

[lostangel]

Both good and bad

Good
A lot of new music from my favorite artists

Bad
Pain and suffering
crying often
lonliness
heart break
disappointments
feeling depressed
self harm
a LOT of bad memories

 

[Miserable]

*sigh* nothing good. A year ago I thought I wasn't good enough for my gf but I still thought she loved me. She realized I wasn't good enough and now she's gone. It would have been nice thinking I had found real love at least.
lol I just wrote a post about how i never cry and now I'm crying.
I've been sick leave the entire year. Spent Christmas in jail which only helped to destroy what little family I had left. I've become a fat pig too, just nothing to do and the meds I guess.
A whole year and it was worth nothing.
I helped my mom quite a bit, there's that I guess