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Feb 11, 2023
46
clicking that link to awful movies wiki on january 20, 2018. it lead me down a long, shitty road that ended in me meeting my shitty ex, who only further reminded me of the fact that i'm not worth a damn.
 
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areyousafe??

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
478
I would have started therapy with a psychologist instead of just meds. I'm getting old and it seems too late to rewire my brain.
 
endupdead

endupdead

Member
Nov 15, 2024
39
It could be several things.

1. that my parents had never met.

2. never having installed that app to meet people.

3. having discovered the internet at such a young age (6 years old)
 
KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

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Nov 23, 2020
1,851
Too many things to count, but if I had to choose only 1, I would go back to the summer before I started high school and ensure I never met the older student who would start molesting me in the months to come. If it was impossible to stop this from happening, I wish I had never told anyone and kept it secret.

I hadn't even learned what sex was yet, when he started touching me. A naive, foolish, little girl, I didn't know any better, I was so stunned by the fact that a cool older guy would want to talk to someone like me, of all people, and showed any interest in hanging out, because I barely had any friends and was bullied so much.

Whenever I see movies or TV shows featuring high school, it makes me feel viscerally sick, empty, and mournful for a life I never got to have. There are no happy memories of school life for me. I barely even got to go to school as a teenager because my family removed me after the sexual abuse case was opened. I wish I got to have a normal high school life, instead of being locked away.

Sometimes I'll be reminded that the girls who are now mothers and professionals were the same individuals who called me a slut and whore a decade ago, and wished that I would die, when their beloved shitty friend violated my dignity multiple times and molested me in public.

I was only 13 years old when that guy was following me around at the high school tour, planting the seeds for some kind of relationship to happen. I want to go back in time and run away from him. After it happened I cut off all my hair, because I never wanted a man to look at me like that again. I wish it was only a nightmare instead of the reality that I've had to live with the past 11 years.
 
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benjamind2020

Member
Sep 18, 2020
71
There were several, a couple of those mistakes were not taking steroids quickly enough and didn't realise there was something wrong with one of my ears leaving me with damage I cannot fix - I doubt I could have really fixed it even with steroids but it's gotten worse over the years, before that one another mistake was discovering infant circumcision (non-medical, of course), and then another mistake was discovering animal cruelty (pig slaughterhouses). Those have left me wanting to leave.
 
mattoman

mattoman

Member
Nov 26, 2024
96
I'd prevent my younger self from taking such big loans and to gamble it all away. This has given me a lot of financial issues which then lead me developing a drinking problem. These have completely ruined my relationships with other people. One might say that these issues can be fixed "easily", perhaps yes, but from time to time it's really hard to live with it.
 
RandomGirl52

RandomGirl52

Member
Nov 26, 2024
21
making my 11 year old self never meet the people who ended up being my best friends all throughout junior high and HS, sure they were great as friends but they slowly started drifting away when i entered HS they made new friends stopped talking to me as often and one started getting annoyed any time i talked to them, in the end they fucked up my mental health gave me paranoia, attachment issues, trust issues, social anxiety and worsened my depression
 
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ropearoundatree

Experienced
Nov 9, 2023
212
I've got to be honest. I can't even choose just one... there have been so many! :/

. . .Perhaps, dying sooner (a whole lot_ would have prevented a whole lot of problems
for everyone involved in me, w/my life*

So many disasters averted, and fewer people who would've had formed such an unfavorable
opinion of me (for having soured as a result of...)
 
AuroraB

AuroraB

Experienced
Oct 20, 2024
239
At my age, so many regrets but the biggest 3 are:

1. Fucking up in high school and college with weed and NOT being focused enough to study all the pre-reqs for going into a medical career.

2. Quitting a job I loved without 2 weeks notice because it wasn't paying enough and I needed a higher paying job ASAP and then a few months after I quit, the department unionized and gave everyone huge raises (literally doubling everyone's wages over night).

3. Selling a house near the ocean and moving 80 miles inland.
 

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