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emma99

Student
Jul 31, 2024
193
Okay so a bit of a strange one, but hey none of us actually know what happens when we CTB do we.
Lets way you CTB and instead of heaven, reincarnation or total blackness.
you were given the option to pick one point in your life that you were sent back to,
with the knowledge you now have, what point would that be

for me it would be the child therapist i was sent to during my parents divorced
when my mother bribed me to lie. I was only a child so naturally i believed her.
but knowing what i know now, i would of told the truth.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,495
Back to December of 2021 when Nembutal from D was still available and several here were buying it

They arrested D and there is no one selling N online anymore

I was too scared of police to buy and held off. If i could go back in time i'd buy 3 bottles of N for 19 grams total.

horrifically what your describe or time travel is impossible . once an opportunity is gone it's gone forever. once an hour day or 1 minute is gone it is gone forever. what i could 've done with that hour day minute week etc is gone forever. i wasted all my life doing garbage addictions like youtube TV sports when i should've been focusing working on suicide . i'd be out of this prison hell by now if i would've instead of youtube crap
 
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emma99

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Jul 31, 2024
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Back to December of 2021 when Nembutal from D was still available and several here were buying it

I was too scared of police to buy and held off. If i could go back in time i'd buy 3 bottles of N for 19 grams total.

horrifically what your describe or time travel is impossible . once an opportunity is gone it's gone forever. once an hour day or 1 minute is gone it is gone forever. what i could 've done with that hour day minute week etc is gone forever. i wasted all my life doing garbage addictions like youtube TV sports when i should've been focusing working on suicide . i'd be out of this prison hell by now if i would've instead of youtube crap
D?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,737
I only want to go back in time and make it so I never existed at all, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence and I know I was never meant for the torment of existing as a conscious being, existence truly has caused me nothing but pain.
 
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Timothy7dff

Wizard
Apr 10, 2024
657
For me it would be not to have gotten in the stock market. Destroyed EVERYTHING.
 
yvesapple

yvesapple

yum yum
Aug 3, 2024
27
Okay so a bit of a strange one, but hey none of us actually know what happens when we CTB do we.
Lets way you CTB and instead of heaven, reincarnation or total blackness.
you were given the option to pick one point in your life that you were sent back to,
with the knowledge you now have, what point would that be

for me it would be the child therapist i was sent to during my parents divorced
when my mother bribed me to lie. I was only a child so naturally i believed her.
but knowing what i know now, i would of told the truth.
probably high school so i could have a better life now
 
unwilling_lich

unwilling_lich

emo mcgee
Jan 1, 2024
43
back to my teens and actually take care of my health and stuff, transition way earlier, and meet ppl with the skills i have now, which isnt much but is slightly more than a 16 yr old me had. i wouldnt have wasted my teens and 20s being too scared and self loathing. i might develop long lasting relationships with ppl. i was already suicidal but it was less certain back then, so maybe id have a chance
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
281
id go back to being 9 or 10yrs old. id stop trying to please people by doing things i dont want to do, and be more honest and open about expressing how i feel instead of keeping it to myself. and trust my gut feelings more instead of overthinking. even if it resulted in me being criticised. i think i wouldve suffered a lot less internally and maybe even turned out to be a different person

it feels too late to start doing any of those things now, bc any desire i did have for living has just completely vanished. im just waiting to die, at this point
 
GuessWhosBack

GuessWhosBack

The sun rises to insult me.
Jul 15, 2024
453
I would have returned to when I was about 10 and redone my file keeping in mind what I know today.
 
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CantDoIt

Elementalist
Jul 18, 2024
874
I'd go back to being maybe 10 and actually listen to advice people gave me, stop being stressed at dumb shit, be nicer to people, make better decisions, and just appreciate life more.
 

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