What's the point of anything if I will CTB one day?

[DeadbeatDaughter]

I know I will do it one day. And I've known that since I was young but as I get older it's hard to do anything. What's the point of dying my hair, I will end my life one day.

Why spend money on the piercings I want, and concerts and things I enjoy. None of it will have been worth it because at the end of the day, I still do not want to live.

I recently thought about spending money to start collecting something I like. But what's the point at all? Why? Why can't I just get the guts and do it already? It is like there's this childish hope inside of me that if I just give it one more day, one more week, one more month, one more year, maybe everything will just magically click and fall into place and be okay. But I have been saying that for like 10 years now. There is no magic or clicking or falling into place. I am still the same miserable girl I was hundreds and hundreds of days ago. I am just waiting to get the guts to do it there is no point in allowing myself to do things I enjoy anymore

 

[LostZombie]

Ha, that is the question of life some say there is no point so why be here, others will say there is no point so we must find our own meaning, etc. So the question depends on who you are asking so I implore you think of what you believe, if you see no point and ctb that's your choice. If you want to wait for a minute that's okay too nobody should tell you how to live or die. So ask yourself what you think it is since there is no simple answer, this life thing never gives us that.

 

[K14~♡]

For the things you want, I don't think its worth matters. You enjoy it, you like it, and I think that's enough for you to indulge in it...If there is any point, then I guess it's enjoying your time and letting yourself be at peace before death. Having the you before dying have some enjoyment sounds better than staying completely miserable till the end. But this answer is probably unsatisfying TvT

 

[Hg5fd]

I think that as long as there's anything worth living for, I should try to overcome the urge to commit suicide. It's very difficult for me. I could easily die, but I understand that such an act would have terrible consequences for my family.

P.S. I apologize for any mistakes. English is not my native language.

 

[BrokenByTheSystem]

This is called nihilism.

I've accepted that everything is pointless. But the worse part isn't even that, the worse part is that anything we plan to do involves money.
As you said as well: "...spending money to start collecting something I like..."

Anything we try to "make up" to make life bearable involves spend money or earn money.

We're living in a sick society that see nothing else besides money.

Once people start realizing that their whole existence is around money and how stupid this is, we'll start seeing suicide in masses happening.