Discussion If everything in your life suddenly changed for the better, would you still CTB?

[312]

Probably yes, I feel that somehow this was born with me and I don't fit into this world anyway, even if the best assemblies.

 

[myopybyproxy]

Define 'changed for the better'.

 

[DeadMemes]

Problem is it's not just the future I want to change, it's the past as well

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I believe that no matter what happens I will still want to die. Nothing would ever take away the emptiness. I want nothing to do with life at all. I am not meant for this world. I cannot imagine myself ever wanting to live. Even if things were better in someway, I would still have no interest in living. I also do not want to live in a world where so much pain and suffering exists. Dying is what feels right for me, there will never be anything else here for me.

 

[fatefulstillness]

Things already "got better" for me. It doesn't take away the weight of what I've lost. And in all honesty, I am not surprised.

There are some places you don't get out of. Sometimes what's left of you is not worth the pain. Sometimes the only way out you have is to not longer exist. There's only so much a person can take before they break fundamentally. I don't think that ever heals. If anything, I believe in respecting someone's right to decide whether they want to keep going or not.

I'm sure I want to control when it's my time to leave. I know this is how I'll go.