I'd rather end up with brain damage or end up in a mental hospital than living this life anymore.

[lovelulu]

At this point, I dont care if I even survive anymore. I dont care how ill end up. I just can't do this anymore. I'd rather be retarded with brain damage or in the mental hospital—atleast then I could finally think about something else other than my shitty life. On top of that, I know ill never get over my fp no matter how much she'll hurt me, so id rather be dead (obviously), in a mental hospital, or have brain damage than having to think of her. Im struggling so much and there's nothing anyone can do. I hate my shitty life so much. Everything I do including this is a cry out for help, even though I know no one can do shit for me.

 

[Slark]

I've been through two stays in psychiatric hospitals, and they weren't such bad experiences. If you need help, maybe you should talk to someone about hospitalization. Just don't expect it to be like a hotel, with good days and really bad days. In my case, one night a patient in withdrawal arrived and kept screaming for his mother all night, and you could hear him even though he was in a different room. I also saw people tied to their beds due to alcohol withdrawal. Well, I guess those weren't good experiences either.